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After today broke down i know what i need to do … you are all lovely people thanks for listening
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I cut my arm. It’s pretty deep. I tried to tell somebody earlier but they were busy.
A few days ago (on the 25th) to be exact I attempted to take my life and almost succeeded! Except, well… remorse and guilt along with my Dog made me realize I made a horrible mistake. Sensing this my body had begun rejecting the drugs that were laced in my suicide cocktail.
The 25th was my dads birthday and truthfully I think he’d be too pleased with himself if I took my own life on his birthday, so, I have decided that no matter what happens I will only kill myself on MY birthday. (looks better on the grave, I think)
Anyways, I really want to have someone who […]
I’m not going to graduate. I know I’m not
My family, mainly my dad, who’s beeing emotionally abusive for years and years due to school, will abandon me, or maybe worse.
I mean nothing to most people who live near me, my only friends are words on a screen and they have kept me going whenever i tried to give up
but i cant keep putting it off.
Im a failure, and I need to get out of here.
I’ve wanted a painless, peaceful death for a long time, I’ve thought about sitting in my car in the garage, but sadly ive been told it wont work.
I’ve thought about vodka+pills, […]
I have been cutting since my 7th grade year. I don’t really know why I started  or what caused me to feel cutting was a good way out. All I know is that I used cutting as an escape for my pain which then turned to an addicting habit. A girl I knew, Raiyanne used to put small razor blades in her compact mirror and cut whenever she needed a release at school. I don’t know why I decided to cut but that became my way of doing it. My wrists are scarred up so bad from cutting that I’m not even sure how I […]
Uhmm. This is my first post or whatever and I think writing will help. I love writing and expressing my feelings. Alright, I’ve been depressed for about a year or so. I started noticing when all I did was cry every other day. Cry because my parents argue, cry because my older brother life is fucked up ever since his divorce. Cry because my moms sick and getting surgery. Cry because sometimes my boyfriend isn’t there for me. Cry because I remember my friend who died of cancer this summer. Cry for all this little things. It’s gotten worse to the point where I want […]
the hallucinations begin
the maggots crawling on my skin
searching for each fresh wound
wanting to bury deep inside
this dark rotting flesh
of mine
i cry
i only wish to rest
lying here is absolutely
no “good nightâ€
paranoia
filling my mind
drowning in sorrow and pain
this feeling won’t fucking go away
but i have no God
i can not pray
not for this night
nor for any other day.
I wish I was a second.. A second in time. Every second that goes by is gone forever, never to be seen again – not on this day in this month in this year – they’re all gone. To be a second and know that in one second you will disappear without a trace. I just wish a second could go by with me in it and be gone forever..
I know if i die at home my sister will finded me and i willnt do that to her i just run away and be found dead its easier on them that way i believe my mom heart will be broken not my dad though nor my brother might give my grandmother a heart attack my little cousin that so close to me would understand …….and my fiancee would just die she has lost so many people all she has is me now
the reasons im still breathing
here we go. almost two weeks ago, i woke up at 11:30 AM and just sat on the couch and watched television, my dads car was broken down an hour away from my house and he told me to wake my sister up, because she usually sleeps in until the afternoon.. So i went to her room and shouted “Tabby, wake up i’m taking you to the movies!†with a smile on my face, the more i knocked the louder i knocked, i got no answer, this is odd.. i thought.. i tried to turn the door handle, but it wouldn’t budge, i used all […]
Life regrets, repression, unable to let go and it will destroy me. I’m already broken
by makeupboy
written by makeupboy
I have so many life regrets.. I’m only 22 but I regret it all. The way I dealt with everything, all the things I went through, every event and struggle.. I regret it all and I know, I wholeheartedly know that I’ll never get over it until I can go back in time and change it all.. now that’s impossible and it’s a reason why I’m so hopeless because the compilation of events in my life led me to be in the position I am today and i hate it. everything I feel inside stems back from each and every event. I remember and I […]
There will always be pain no matter what. What is the point if pain exists? I’m not sure if happiness exists or if happiness is just the absence of pain. It doesn’t matter if I kill myself or not because there will always be pain. You can’t escape pain if life exists.
I don’t know. I feel awkward writing this but I always feel better just to get things out. Lately stuff is all bothering me and I don’t know why I keep feeling so sad because my problems are so insignificant and I feel so guilty feeling bad because I shouldn’t. I try so so hard to do everything everyone asks and keep a smile on my face and help out but then when I ask something no one ever returns the favor. We do this thing where we all buy each other presents on their birthdays to make them even more special and I have to […]
A while back my aunt took me to a therapist, for my depression.She then took me to a lady who prescribed medication!God, I was so freaking mad, still am a bit peeved.Since hen my depression and anorexia have only gotten worse,I have stated previously that nothing will help but she didn’t listen and now its progressed to a stage where I’m slowly turning into a vegetable (medical term).Also you might not think this but I’m 13 and my life has completely fallen to pieces.If you want to know the full story then look at my other posts but even then you wont know the full […]
seeing you and being with you is like being on drugs
getting high
and then when your gone everything before the high
my life
problems
worries
depression
sadness
it all comes back in a big crash
Earlier in the week it hit me hard, after a meaningful day the day before, only to wake up the next day feeling the same like yesterday never happened. i wanted to die. those thoughts crept back so fast. i think your the only thing keeping me here. i think…
This is my first post here, and I’m just going to throw everything out there to get it all off my chest. It’s going to be pretty long – probably more of a reference for me to grab specific things from later on rather than deserving a full read from the get-go.
I’ve been unhappy for as long as I can remember – have always been one of the outcasts, even in elementary school. Since quitting high school in grade 11 because of a bullshit education system that manufactures cloned drones, I’ve managed to “deal with life” for the past decade. Without an education, I managed […]
It has been 3 years with no cutting and today was my downfall. I never forgot how great the relief is that I get from cutting, but I tried to put it behind me and failed. I’ll admit this time I was scared, the cut was deeper than in the past and I had almost forgotten what to do. I don’t know what prompted me to cut again, maybe it was having to deal with some innate skeletons from my past that got stirred up in a counseling session, or maybe it was that my life is spiraling out of control. […]
Everything happens for a reason…
You saw this for a reason… If you’re looking for a sign not to kill yourself tonight,
Here it is.
You are worth it, don’t waste all the talent &Â beauty you have <3
Can Anyone Please Tell Me What The Point Of Life Is?
I am in Junior High, but I already feel like that I have no point in life. I believe that my friends don’t like me, no one will even notice that I’m gone. I had no gifts or cards except from two of my friends that I am very thankful for. Yet, as I had hoped people would remember, nobody did, but just yesterday, a day after my birthday, I already heard one of my friends, that I thought was one of my close friends, planning something for someone else’s birthday, and their birthday is […]
People are constantly asking what did they do? REALLY!!! PEOPLE IT IS NOT ABOUT YOU!!! Is it just me or do others see it as well? Sorry for yelling that! Were we that mean? Why are you mad at me? What did I do? People just stop for a second and realize that hello my life and my emotions are not centered around you. Ok?
Sorry just venting, another way that they try to guilt you into feeling better. I just want to be left alone get it?
Had a friend take me to a couple of doctor appts. the other day, and they had […]