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I walk around the house all gloomy everyday, and my mother  hates that about me. “I can’t help it, i’m suicidal,” is what I think to say, but do not say to anyone. Day in and day out, I am getting closer to putting my thought of suicide into action. Her anger and screaming only justified what is needed to be done.

I came to a closer realization that being drunk, rather than sober, would be easier for me when the times come. I’m underage, so I would need help from a high school drug dealer. I’m home school now, but when I was in school Joe was […]

Because depression IS considered a health problem.And I didn’t have this problem before.People literally GAVE ME A DISEASE?SHOULD THAT NOT BE PUNISHED?IT”S NOT FAIR HOW PEOPLE CAN JUST GO AROUND GIVING OTHER PEOPLE DISEASES THIS SHOULD BE AGAINST THE LAW.

Well if you wanted honesty, that’s all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it’s better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I’m not okay
I’m not okay
I’m not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it’s not the life it seems?
(I’m not okay)
I’ve told you time and time again you sing the words but don’t know what it means
(I’m not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line […]

Well, the band that has kept me alive for the past four or five years just split up. I stayed off of facebook for a day, and when I logged on, I found out. One of the things that made me keep going was the hope that I would one day see them live, on stage. Now, it won’t happen. They broke up once before, but there’s no hope this time. I’ve just lost another reason to live.

“Cause the hardest part of this, is leaving you.”

i loved you

we connected

we made everyday better

we made people jealous of our joy

jealous of our careless laughter

and then you changed

you made me realise that everyone has changed

everyone but me

im stuck in a time lapse

trying to grasp the happiness i once knew

trying to remake old and wonderful memories

but now i realise im chasing the past

and so infact

im only ever going backwards

my  mind has left me

and now i see no way forward

I’m fine
I’m not fine please help me.

I’m just tired
I can’t take this anymore.

I already ate
I starve myself.

Go away
Show me that you care enough to stay.

I’m just cold
I don’t want you to see my scars.

I’m better, I promise
I’ve never been worse.

I’m okay
I Just wanna die.

Today 23/3/13 was a painful reminder of a close friends death that happened in 2011.
I could not stop crying at the thought of never seeing him again. Not a day goes by without me wondering why I was not there to show support and comfort. I should’ve been there for him. Everyday I feel the pain of his passing.

But today I discovered a new fact.
Yesterday another friend of mine killed himself.
Every tear that is dripping from my eye is painful.
This is breaking my heart, I’m losing everyone.
Two beautiful amazing boys have commited suicide.
Two beautiful loved people have left […]

I am not okay.

Everyday is pain. Everyday is one more day I have to manage through.

I don’t feel like me anymore. Where did I go?

I lost myself

I got erased

I am dead to you.

I didn’t matter

I never existed

I never happened

I am new here. In a nutshell this is pretty much me. I didn’t write this(credit to owner whoever you are, thank you)

I am a weak girl
I always have been
I fall apart at night
I try my best to smile
I sing along to sad songs
Relating them to my life.
Please save me from myself

I was recently told in my college to make a short movie project about my life. Apparently, I’m gonna have to skip this task…

To the patrons of SP: Thanks for entertaining me for awhile. Sorry if I was a dick or too harsh sometimes. Take care of yourselves.

-LMS

What’s the point of living when your soul is already dead?

I want to die but i want to live…………Ive messed up so much but yet still i have someone who believe in me every step of the way I cant hurt her by leave but i need a way to survive in my own when she isnt around ……Help?

the thought of you is killing every part of me.

loving you was suicide.

I was left torn and broken.

im way past every mommet

I’ve broken bones for you.

without you the air is getting hard to breathe.

I’m trying to keep myself alive

But my feelings and insecurities are killing me inside.

leaving me with the thought of  “I wasn’t good enough, I never was.”

Love is suicide.

I have no life, no soul for anyone to hurt becuase they already killed the one that existed….