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Eenie meeine minine moe
to a better place i go
with a slash to my wrist
and the blood down the drain
Five more seconds will end the
pain.
They Found Out. They Found I Cut Myself. They Found Out I Was Going To Kill Myself. Today During School A Police Man And These Two Ambulance Guys Took Me Away. My Mom Found Out. I’m A Disgrace Now. Now I Am On Suicide Watch And Have To Have Therapy. My Life Now Just Ended..
So I probably should have posted before I commented on someone else’s post as I have wrote something that long It’s still awaiting moderation… Oops.
Seeing as I’m not suicidal today (today being the operative word) I thought I would register and tell you a bit about myself first. I’m 19, live in the UK and hate myself. I was bullied for 11 years and developed low self esteem. The bulling became severe 5 years ago and I developed anxiety – I couldn’t leave the house, I would have to get ready to get ready to go out. I would panic at the thought of meeting […]
I’m in a lot of pain. I’m very tired and confused. I’m not looking forward to tomorrow.
Life : A race with the speed of light to the stop sign at the end of the street
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust, don’t stand still now or you’ll start to rust
You don’t know how to cope, as this cognizance becomes a curse
Introspectively trying to assign worth to this existence
You find your only desire, is to set this soul afire
Breathing in smoke from the great blaze
Everything else, starts to fade
Pain,heartache
L
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Now gone
Now all that’s left
Is the […]
Were all connected by some unseen bond, were all so sad and all want to be gone. We all have this feeling of everlasting dread, of waking up and getting out of bed. We all kongrgate at this one haven, a place where even the worst life can be saven.This is the Suicide Project, a site that saved my life. This site has shown me the light, and given me a will to fight.
Last year during the summer I gave myself a deadline. If I could get better and find hope I would live, otherwise I chose a date to die, that date was today, […]
I can’t help but feel bad when I see young children looking so happy without a care in the world.
Just knowing that 10 years later there’s a possibility of them developing an eating disorder, or getting depressed, or going through anything that i’m going through, makes me feel so sad.
This shouldn’t be the world they are growing up in, they all deserve better.
Society nowadays sucks.
so the manager acts all nice on the phone to my mom saying how she really likes me. lies! if u really liked me you would treat me with respect and i probably wouldnt hate you. Really wanting to quit still. i have these irrational thoughts thati cant drop. how everyone knows im awkward and stuff well now it sounds stupid but i cant change how i feel it just wont go away!  infact these feeling arent entirely irrational  because my stupid manager  called me shy and nervous a couple of times and infront of my coworkers. little does she know jow sensitive i am […]
so me and my psykolygist made a promise that between our talks there was no cutting and i felt like it was a big promise so i didn’t cut in a few months but yesterday i culdn’t keep it any more i did cut one slit on my hip and it felt so good i have been missing that feeling for so long and i felt a releif after that one slit and now i’m so afraid that i keep cutting i do not wanna go back to that habbit
but on the otherside it felt so good that i just wanna keep going i just […]
I keep trying to get better, because everyone tells me that I’m sick. That I have a mental disease that can kill me.
So I try again and again.
But I always end up right back here.
I guess I belong here. With the sick and the troubled; the lost and let down. I’m just a sick person looking for what? Happiness? Self worth? Validation? I don’t have a clue. But I do know that I belong with the fallen. I’m here with the people who, even though they’ve never met me, understand me. I’m with those who have given up, who have realized that there’s nothing left […]
I want to end my life.. But when it comes time to, I can’t do it.. Why? I am so miserable. I am sick of the pain I endure everyday. I am ready. I have been for a while now, But I still cannot do it.. Why???
So it’s been about a year since I last posted here. When I last posted http://suicideproject.org/2011/11/tonights-the-night-i-guess/ I wrote about how I wanted to just end my life so badly since I pretty much fucked up every relationship in my life and just believed that I was a shitty person.
Well, long story short, I walked onto a bridge in the middle of the night with the intention to jump hoping no one would have to see me. Some drunken biker stopped right behind me and just started shouting shit out like “DUDE! WHAT ARE YOU DOING BREH? DON’T BE AN IDIOT! LIFE IS GOOD!” and I […]
So last night I met someone!!! She has long black hair, she has these really blue eyes, kind of round face, half Asian half Irish. I meet her when I was climbing a fence because I was trying to watch this match, she could not get over it so I helped her, then we were standing next to each other and we were talking while the game was on. I was so nervous I could feel my stomach turning, I felt such a connection. When the game was over we talked for ages after. She let me walk her home and on the way we passed by […]
To everyone that is alone & especially to the younger generation.
I’ve been thinking a lot about this since I feel so alone. I think a lot of us people who are sensitive to the pain and suffering in this world expect the same kindness in return. I think that’s impossible since so many people are trying to achieve mass friends and acceptance.
I’m not going to give up and maybe you shouldnt either. Instead of trying to befriend the masses, we should seek out and help the ones who are hurting, who do need us.
It’s my mission to find the […]
I am blessed with a baby girl. Her name will be Rayella Zaylynn Martin<3
Her father still hasn't decided to come around.
I'm 20 weeks(:
Half way through my pregnancy.
Rayella loves to moves it seems.
I can't wait to meet her. I am always smiling just by feeling her move. Mommy is ready for you(:
I can’t think of the words to put in this. I’ve lived a good life, as good as it can be. As much as it hurts you to see me gone, it hurts me to have to live, just because you want me to be alive. Why should it matter that I’m dead when it doesn’t bother you that I’m suffering while I was alive. I’m bothered that you lot are in pain. Do you care that me dying will be more peaceful? All you care about is seeing me alive and not wanting me to go, with no respect for the peace I so […]
So, i’m new here and i’m just going to talk about who I am. I’m 14 years old and I have been depressed for as long as I can remember. Even when I was in primary school I had suicidal thoughts, but I thought that maybe things could get better. But they didn’t.
I nearly became eating disordered, I practically starved myself (apart from when I had lunch and dinner because my parents were around). I started getting those “you aren’t good enough to eat food, just stop” thoughts too.Despite having a lot of people around me, I feel so alone. I do self-harm, but […]