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at least in the sense that I’m no longer worrying about the future. I’ve decided to give up on myself, my species, everything really. I’m not emotionally attached to anything, have trouble connecting; this isn’t worth all the effort. People aren’t worth all this.

So I’m definitely going to kill myself and I know how, but the date is a ways away. I want to build up my little brother first; spoil him and pay attention to him the way no one did me when I was his age. He’s about to be hit by puberty and I think I can provide some guidance to […]

I’m old, at least I feel old compared to other entries I have read. Over 40, but my life has been empty since I was 16, I was ignored and neglected by my family. My mother died just before I turned 24, leaving me to try and raise a 9 year old half-sister whose father was an abusive alcoholic who used to beat me, threatened my life and even and threw glass liquor bottles at me. Though I was trying to protect her from that, she hated me for it, and wanted to live with her daddy. She got her wish […]

Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep. If I should die before I wake, I pray the lord my soul to take.

im happy, for once i woke up happy. im having a good day and hopefully it lasts.
since im being positive again instead of being so negative im gunna say a few words

Dear Everyone on this site.

i want you all to stay strong and keep your head up high, yes i know its difficult. but it is true what some people say. if you want to be happy sometimes you just have to tell yourself “im going to be happy today” and be very positive about it.

no one decides you future but you. and make every day count.

if your bullied stay strong and stick up […]

I can’t help but feel the pain that others cause. They do this just to hurt me. It works. I was sexually molested in school. I told the school, but they never did anything. They said they would. I try so hard to do what is right, but I fail. I cry every night because I am bullied. I draw, sing, do anything to get my head away from the fear of killing myself tonight. I don’t know what to do

I just joined this site today. I am turning 17 in April and in the last four years I have had five attempts and the thought of dying burdens me everyday. It has taken over my my entire being, and I know its not what I want but when you feel something so strong and so often how can it not be the right thing? I know I’m weak so I hate myself for drawing attention to something I don’t even have the courage to do. I just don’t know what to do, and there hasn’t been anyone to talk to. I found this site […]

Every time my dispair has reached a Peak I find myself unable to convince myself that the last time I decided not to kill myself was justifyd. because since then things have only goten worse. I just Want the pain to stop. Why keep going just to suffer more? Why do people keep trying to make me feel guilty for just wanting a end to the pain I always feel? Sine I was eight all I wanted was to not have to hurt anymore.

This world is so corrupt and fucked. Entire civilizations run by fucking over the small people who care and want to make a difference. I don’t understand how a person could be physically capable of child abuse, spouse abuse, assault, murder and fucking over everyone for a little bit more money.

I feel like this world has crumbled and I’m wading through the rubble. I see bullshit, fake motherfucking teenagers my age that make me sick. The males throw away all dignity and kindness to try and get with girls. And the girls do the same to get attention they so desperately need.

I cant cry and I had no idea […]

I hate being alive. I’ve been thinking about suicide for most of my life. I’m 44, with two young children. Leaving them would be my only regret… But I think they’d get along better.
I just hate being here, there’s no point. I have no friends, no family. I can’t connect to people, never have. I was brought up sad and alone, and I’ve never been able to change it. Tried therapy and meds. Was on anti-deppressants over 10 years. I’ve got no one to talk to. Anyway, if I did I’d just hear how I should think of other people, that my release […]

Sometimes, it’s the small things that push you over the edge and make you look at suicide…First of all, the main thing that’s bugging me, my son got sick, and the doctors don’t know what’s going on with my baby. And I can’t help myself, much less him… So, he has lost 5lbs in 10 days, and I can’t get him to eat. Well, finally in the last couple of days, he has started feeling better. So, that’s one thing that has straightened up. I recently got out of a serious long-term relationship that ended well enough… And we are still roommates. The problem […]