I am just after some validation

Basically I cheated on my 20 week pregnant wife with our second child. I am an asshole. Now she is alone, with a 22 month old, no job, no income…. It’s aweful. I want to give her everything. Im not angry at her. She is at me. She doesnt want me to ever see the kids again and that im not a fit parent. And you know what, she is right! I am an aweful person. Im not a fit father or husband. She says she’ll make it hell for me to see the kids… and she will and I […]

Tentacool. Tentacruel, was the giant. Sent to take out.
A leech of life, and harborer of filth and poison.
The overlords, of the Atlantis. Come, to save you from Armageddon.
We shall come back, in the next thousand years.
I am here to fight. The world. Lost. Take me to the end.

The doorway. Lord, I don’t think I can make it.
The roadway, or the flyway. Pray, for the last day.
Back to affinity. Life. Today, away from tomorrow.
Tonight, I will grow another hundred years.

Forever. And ever. Will you be the one.
The totem. You are the mystic one.
The world is a dying […]

im tired of feeling so alone ,im really having a hard time with everything nd i literally have NO1 to talk to everything is just built up inside me which is really overwhelming im just sooo lonely 🙁

my parents gave me the choice to see a psychologist since she noticed I seemed different. I accepted and was all hopeful about things getting better, but now I’m not. she cant take away my coping methods they are fucking mine. I feel so stupid that I wanted help for so long but now that I have it I don’t want it anymore. I wrote a suicide note last night, but im scared since my last attempt failed miserably :(I need to find a way that would guarantee death 🙁

 Life is full of unexpected hardship. Have you ever run out of gas before, and been forced to walk to the gas station? Well, it’s rough. It will take almost a minute before anyone stops to pick you up.

62 more days to go. I met my then-future husband in the state where I grew up and was practicing law. His work took him to another state and I accompanied him after we got married. I’ve been a stay at home mom all this time — 13 years. He makes a good living but he’s a compulsive debtor. I kept us afloat with my inheritance — over $100,000. We’re in the middle of a divorce and it looks like our house will have to be sold because I cannot get a mortgage in my own name due to my not having a two-year work history.  I love my house and our daughter […]

I am happy my family pushed for me to get a dog. No matter how bad of a day I have or how stupid I act sometimes, my dog will always love me. Zelda Is my life line.  You can talk to them for hours on end and they will never judge you or talk back at that. They are the perfect listeners and it seems they can tell when you are having a great day or a bad one.

im bipolar, scared, lonely, and just want someone to spark up convo with me.

the link missing until the end. may I enter the impenetrable.
Going, across of the world. we must prepare the house for hell.
the shaman is twoyoungmen. He is a god.
the religion of the dying faith. he has long hair, and the hands of god.
I wonder how oblivion must be so beautiful. To be.
open the seventh way. you are the god, I can see.
journeying to the cold. where has the light gone.
Clark Skyward. The solstice.

the last strain is called comatose.
I do not want to get too close to the radiation.
a falling astral sound of the heart.
I only pray to one.

Icarus. Can you ever be born again.
I am the only that dies in this world.
I won’t walk again into the shop.
God. Is not just a word.

God, is the Almighty. Turning the word into capital.
The new age. I befall, stricken. Damnation secretly lives.
In front of our eyes. Inside our hearts.
But I just want to breathe. A trio, and all that I can’t do.

My salvation. Under the ocean. Descending.
A magician, there is […]

Do you ever get the urge to spontaneously start dancing because the joy you feel is so overwhelming? There’s a song playing in your head, you’re beautiful, everyone loves you, and your future is sure to be awesome?

Does that ever happen to you?

Music from the game Diablo, very “hellish” and creepy as it can get, I bet if there were music in the underworld it would sound like this.

Some thoughts:

I can see what you see not
vision milky then eyes rot
when you turn they will be gone
whispering their hidden song
then you see what cannot be
shadows move where light should be
out of darkness, out of mind
cast down into the halls of blind

and another:

So this is hell. I’d never have believed it.
You remember all we were told about the torture-chambers,
the fire and brimstone, the “burning marl.” Old wives’ tales!
There’s […]

Please someone, Anyone….Help me….I wanna die so badly right now, and i have no one to talk to…Please… Just Please….Talk to me…Don’t leave me alone….I don’t wanna be alone anymore…

 I watched both of the Kill Bill movies today (for the 14th time). Pai Mei is my favorite character from the series. I wonder if I could train under someone like him. How does one even go about finding an authentic Pai Mei? Would I need to infiltrate an international assassin network  first?

This actor is named Gordon Liu. He was also the leader of the Crazy 88’s – (the pack of swordsmen who try to kill Beatrix Kiddo at O-ren Ishii’s compound). Mr. Liu suffered a stroke in 2011 which left him partially paralyzed on his right side, and he’s got […]

“Life is what happens while you’re busy trying to fix RSI.” (repetitive strain injury) [this is actually paraphrased]

Now substitute “RSI” with whatever you haven’t been able to fix or change, regardless of who is at fault or to blame. It could be paralysis or disease or heartbreak, or even chronically reduced self-esteem, due to an abusive childhood, or even just “bullying.” It could even be that you simply realized that humanity seems to embrace and prioritize the most absurd things and notions, and even decides to mandate injustice and tyranny into “law.”

To simplify:

“Life is what happens while we’re busy trying to fix what went wrong […]

The song reflects my thoughts about being sent to another dimension – afterlife. Travelling through the vastness of an endless space with nothing but honor in disguise beside me.

Even this late it happens:
the coming of love, the coming of light.
You wake and the candles are lit as if by themselves,
stars gather, dreams pour into your pillows,
sending up warm bouquets of air.
Even this late the bones of the body shine
and tomorrows dust flares into breath.

I tried overdosing about 2 weeks ago ended up at the mental hospital. My mental diagnosis was changed as well as my medications.  I felt so much better leaving there after the medication change. But long story short no one wants me around anymore I am all alone. I finally found an article that said I would be labeled for life and they are right so once you try most likely you will need to find a more sucessful way to commit suicide because you life will be worse after your attempt.

It always comes back. All my life, the depression always comes back. I can pull myself out through sheer will power, and I’ll be fine for a week or two, and I think ‘I can do this, all I have to do is not think’.

Then one day I remember what a shit bag I am. How useless, fat, ugly and completely disposeable I am. How broken I am. Someone esle could do my job so much better. So I think, what if I just step aside? What if I just take myeslf out of the picture, so someone else can step up to the plate?

Some […]

I must sound like a fucked up crazy clown. My torment, so unnatural.

Stuck here behind my labyrinth.

The guitar sounds heavy. Never reaching the melody.

For if it ever does, here, in our circus.

Why is it that you fall. Why is it that I fall.

Lost, killing to each other.

If you can add to the song, what would you even say.

It seems that our hearts have all slipped away.

I’ve typed this all right now, right from the fight – my back is still bleeding. If you’ll only like to hear about the hostility, read (FIGHT) below, but I provide backstory. I ramble on at times seemingly about irrelevant things, but only because I want to cover all bounds.

I’m posting this on Reddit as well.

This is not a joke. I am being completely serious

My brother is mentally ill (not in the obvious way, you’ll have to observe his behavior over a few months to realize). He used to be a division I football athlete but failed in his endeavors to go to the NFL […]