“I kissed the scars on her skin.
I still think you’re beautiful, and I don’t ever wanna lose my best friend.
I screamed out,”God, you vulture, bring her back or take me with her!”
~Pierce the Veil
Come on in!
Have a seat, i hope you like the people you’re about to meet.
First we have this girl, you see is kinda a geek.
This girl likes to read, she’s not out-going but she isn’t meek.
Then we have another girl, tall and proud she stands.
Guess again, she’s scared that people find the secret she hides.
She prays no one knows.
We now have a broken one, some of you may know-
This girl’s soul is so blacken and cold.
She doesn’t care that you’re even there.
She doesn’t want someone to hold, she just wants it all to end.
Scaredy cat girl, afraid […]
This song was written by a talented singer and song-writer after he lost his wife to suicide. I think it’s worth a listen. It tells the story of pain, relapses, and finding the ultimate happiness that everyone yearns for. The struggles you all are dealing with now will make you stronger, wiser people. Happiness will come with patience. Stick around and give it a chance.
“Life Ain’t Always Beautiful” by Gary Allan
Well, I will start in history, when I was 12. I was at father’s place, it was my home, but I started to have some creepy nightmare. Everything was so dark and in the end there was a demon, that was something like Satan and God in one. It dreamed that every night for 7 months. And after that I started noticing some problems my father have with my mother. And only one question changed everything. He was totally angry and he shouted at me “Go fucking kill yourself”. It was so painful.
That night I dreamed that same nightmare and when I woke up I […]
It’s not fear of hight, but fear from not jumping off.
hey everyone needed ur help, hmmm don’t know where should i start from im 25 unemployed with a mba degree, i have a sister who is excellent at everything she does whether studies or in career. Lol i hate to say this but these days in getting jealous of her. She is loved by everyone around and always excel in anything she do as far as in concerned i don’t think that i even exist in this world. she overpowers me im like a shadow who is there but no one can feel its existence
I’ve had depression since the age of 12. It was really stupid as a kid. I’d cry, cuddle with my nana and miss school and cry more.
As I grew up, it just got worse. The more I learned about the realities of the world, the ugliness of people, the more I spiralled.
It doesn’t help that I got good grades and have shitty parents.
My father is a wife beater but has stopped recently because I punched him the last time.
My mother is a compulsive liar and is bipolar.
If you add the two, it’s really tough. To make things worse, my siblings and I are talented and […]
When I use the word “god” I’m not talking about any particular religious image. For lack of a better word, I’m using “god” to mean whatever force created and/or governs this universe. It could be a bearded dude on a throne, it could be a mathematical equation or it could be a random spark that started a fire. But whatever it is, I hate it.
I hate the rules and patterns of existence that we live by. Universal laws like “survival of the fittest”, “kill or be killed” and “consume others so that you may live” are the laws of all living organisms, whether we’re talking […]
I don’t remember what it’s like, not to have a scar insight.
Tell me where I went wrong in life.
I don’t remember when I didn’t cry myself to sleep at night.
The nightmares seem to follow me.
I can’t remember a time I was actually alright.
What’s wrong with me?
When did my pain become so visually seen?
The scars are showing my history.
When did my brain turned on me?
I can’t look in the mirror anymore, because i’m afraid of what I’ll see.
Tell me when everyone turned their back on me?
They can’t see the darkness inside me.
When did I […]
i really wish i had the balls to kill myself im just so tired
Im tired of fighting through each day like everything is alright but really i cant take anything anymore
.. But I want to get this off my chest. I need to.
I came across this website an hour ago, I figured I could possibly post my thoughts here, because it’s just a forum right? No quick replies, no need to put up a front; because I’m fake. I want to be real, I want people to know the truth about me. All my life I put up a front. I act like an apathetic asshole.. But that’s not who I am and it’s just this bad habit. It’s this wall I have, because I’m afraid. Every time I tear down this wall I get […]
Is it okay to post up my email so people can talk to me?
I think lonliness is one of the worst feelings in the universe.
so talk to me : onelongthread1995@gmail.com
Do you really think we need to live with other human beings?
My experience proved 90% of our problems wipe out if we stay alone and out of the society. Only thing we need to deal with is boredom.
Most of the things that humans do is foolish. No one really has profound reason for what they trying to achieve with life.
If a person struggling to become president of USA or Entrepreneur trying to create empire worth billions of money and has huge impact on human race  these kind of thing may worth all the struggle a humans undergo.
If you ask these 90% of people- they really don’t know […]
I can’t stop cutting myself. I honestly am sitting on my bed with a knife in my hand cutting away at myself like it’s nothing, but I’m used to it. And I’m so sorry, but I have to admit, I like the way it feels. I love the way I feel the shearing pain of blade against skin as the voices that overtake me slowly fade into a whispering echo in the back of my mind. I feel the stickiness of the blood. I can’t stop. I don’t know why I try. No one can help me and I know that. Don’t tell me it […]
“I do not fear death. I had been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it”.- Mark Twain
“After your death you will be what you were before your birth”. – Arthur Schopenhauer
“It ain´t the parts of the Bible that I can´t understand that bother me, it is the parts that I do understand.” – Mark Twain
 “Everyone is so full of shit”. – Green Day (from Jesus of Suburbia).
I can’t tell people how I feel because of a misguided sense of how they perceive me and because the words that I have, as extensive as my vocabulary is, aren’t up to the task of adequately conveying the feelings I have or the impact they have on me. I am depressed, a condition which has sat in the background of my mind for a great many years and pervades the darkest corners of my conscious and subconscious thought. Why that is and where it comes from is a matter for discussion by people that have given themselves more education into the workings of the […]
im not young. Im over 40. I am married. I have 3 kids, Yet, I am alone. I am an only child. All of my family is dead. I have always been the place everyone comes to when they want something but I have no one. Hell, even my attorney up and bailed on me with no notice. HA! So, here I am. No value, no worth. I am now in the active phase of making plans to ensure the safety to my kids after I am gone.