What is the lowest point/ season in life that you remember? Did it ever get better from there?

This joblessness is killing me and my money is running dry, it’s only a matter of time. Yet I dreaded the job when I actually had one. No, it’s more the people that I hate, those talentless “high flying” corporate bitches. Pretty sure I will encounter those ugly personalities again if and when I land a job.

Have gone for a handful of fruitless interviews, I think one rejected me because I pointed out a grammatical error in their application form. It is the local branch of […]

You promised you’d be there for me. You promised you’d help me. You promised not to let me drown.

I knew I shouldn’t have believed you. I knew I shouldn’t have been so gullible. You don’t want me anymore. You just want to be ‘friends’ now. But you and I both know that won’t happen. You and I both know we won’t really speak anymore. You and I  both know you’ve given up on me.

You’re not here for me. You’re not helping me. You’ve let me drown.

If you couldn’t even handle a month of being with me and trying to help, how can I handle a lifetime […]

Pierce thy skin
Make it bleed
A lake of red
So I can be free

Cut until I cry
Tear my soul
Rip it to shreds
Then let it go

Forgive
But don’t forget
The memories
Without regrets

I’m not fine
I’m not okay
Just let the pain
Take me away

you used to stare at me now you don’t
you have a girlfriend and i don’t have you.. and never will…

When I was a child, I used to think that life was just a temporary nightmare. So every night I thought my last day was over and that I would not wake up next morning. How fool I was: it turns out you have to make yourself to sleep forever.

Everyone seem to think I’m ready for my finals and I’m gonna pass but I’m scared shitless pardon my language it’s my first college finals and at the top of my class ……gonna drink and go for a run to calm down …….later lovelies

I want to stop feeling like this, or at least try. So how do I tell my extremely military style parents that I would liketihet mental help? Keep in mind that this will ruin any chance of me going into the military, and invalidate my current application.

Just saying.

Things are different than they were in the old days.

Maybe we are all a little claustrophobic as our freedoms and privacy gets smaller and smaller.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Fk3D6weWFc&sns=em

The more I think of it, the more I realise I just find 00134 and 222244 such soothing colours (the main blue purples of the website). they give me a feeling of being at home more than being in my home , is that just me being weird? I am loosing connection with the physyical world so it might be that, what do you guys think?

My eleven year relationship ended 15 months ago and in an effort to find new people to connect with, I joined a social networking site.  I made friends and had a pretty decent support network for well over a year, but in December I deleted my profile from Google Plus.  I had been seeing more and more of my friends posting about their happy relationships and the wonderful parts of their lives… and I was starting to hate them for it.  Watching others enjoy their lives while mine was so miserable seemed to be self-torture.  My posts were steadily getting darker and darker and fewer […]

You know what makes me feel better sometimes when I’m feeling down?

Reading a true story about someone who is up shit creek farther than me.  At least I have a paddle.

Adrift is a great true story about Mr Callahan, who was trapped on a rubber ducky life raft in the ocean for 76 days.  Here is a link to the eBook download (mods, I believe the author made the book public domain at one time)

Callahan_Steven-Adrift.epub:

http://easyfilesharing.info/file/1550/callahan-steven-adrift.epub

Here is a link to the authors website.  He worked on the movie […]

There is help.  You are loved.

Hey there,

It’s been 9 long months of depression and sleeping disorder caused by breaking up after a loooong relationship.

I had depression again in the past, both when I was a kid, a teenager (excessive pressure from parents) and an adult, for various different reasons, including illness (temporary, but 3 months and loads of meds “worked wonders” on me), but managed to fight them each time.

I also had suicidal thoughts since I was a kid, never tried it though, but I’ve got to admit that I never was closer than I am in these 9 months. Managed to keep living without any attempts, getting professional help […]

I can’t shake the feeling that I’ll never be happy. This intuition, this irrational understanding that I will always be drowning. That regardless of how hard I swim, how much breath I have, or how steady the current, I will never reach the oceans surface. I know that the air is beautiful. Others have said so, they’ve spoken to me of the wonderful, artistic splendor that lurks just centimeters above the waters murky surface.

But it’s dark down here. It’s dark and its cold and my legs are freezing over.

The sunlight penetrates the sea some days, but only enough to illuminate the barrier between us. Never […]

For the people who dont know what this is.a ecovillage is a small town in the middle of nature where the people are total self efficient,people grow their own food,build their own houses,have their own educational system.it is the most healthy place in the world,where money is whorthless,you eat healthy food,and you live in paradise with very interesting people.i still have depresion and when i went to one of this places i felt so good physycally and mentally,doing things that helped me a lot like yoga,eating healthy and conviving with ppeople healthy,in pure nature.this ecovillages are all over the world,africa,ausstralia,china etc.i want you to know […]

With complete knowledge about the world and enough number of readings that our ancestors preserved, I hereby writing

1. A human being must know when to quit own life
2. Its always been a race, who ever spends 100 yrs in a race he is fool
3. Directly or indirectly everyone is trying for

Money
Fame
Impact you create on world before you die

By using 6th sense you should be able to predict whether you going to achieve enough amount of above three things and the time period required

Living 100 years hoping that you achieve one of above with mediocre skill set you developed is also known as stupidity

I haven’t posted in a bit… Well not daily… That’s because I was on this four day trip and I had no wifi… So here’s day three:

Hai Guys,

Wow day three. So my trip was good, except for the fact I had no wifi. It’s been an okay day. I’m sick and stressed and just plain tired. I haven’t been lying though about how I am. I think I might start again though… Because I don’t really think anyone wants to heat the truth. So a while back I posted a poem called Is It Selfish or Is It, not sure which one, but I got […]

So here it goes. I live in Canada, I wasn’t born here but I came here when I was 15. My first friend was this girl named Ana, we became friends cause we were on the same class and we were from the same country. Ana and me, wow. We had this amazing friendship, at the beginning it was awkward cause tbh I’m an awkward person, I don’t trust in too many people and I’m very selective when it comes to friends, etc. but her, she’s very outgoing and crazy and stuff, everybody loves being with her. I didn’t mind that, I mean, she’s my […]

I’m sorry I ever saw you in the hall.
I’m sorry I ever met you at the mall.
I’m sorry I fell head over heals for you.
I should’ve known it was too good to be true.
For my love is not enough.
Life is just so tough…

-A poem I wrote a few months ago.

I just can’t do this anymore and no one in my life understands.  They don’t understand that I don’t want to live. I see no purpose in life. You go through so many hard things to just die in the end.  I hate living and telling me things like “At least you have it better than people in Africa” doesn’t help. It makes it worse. If I could, I would give them my life, if that would mean I wouldn’t have to live it anymore. People keep telling me that God put me here for a reason, but I don’t believe that we go to […]