Hi. I’m a junior in college.

I am suicidal. Yet, I have no reason to be…I mean aside from crushing loneliness, ahaha, that shouldn’t be a thing though. My parents pay for my apartment and food, I’m on a scholarship that ONLY requires a 2.5 GPA.
Yay me…except every C requires an A along with it.
I’m smart though, and my major is only accounting, it’s not like I’m trying to be a doctor or an engineer or something.

I’ve dated 3 guys since I was 18.
My longest relationship lasted 7 months.
All of my exes have blocked me.
Actively went out of their way to […]

please someone help me , I dont know myself anymore , what im doing in this world? I just dont belong here . It’s a fucking war inside my head , just wanna die.

I just dont know myself anymore , who am I ? what im I doing in this world? Im adopted , since i was a baby my life was all about shit . never was good at school . i say thanks to my parents , for all they have done to me , and say thanks to my friends too . But im not okay , im done , done! my boyfriend break up with me yesterdy , i tough he loved me …. I have so much to say , but im portuguese so my english isn’t good… sorry i tried . I […]

Take a look to the sky just before you die
It is the last time you will
Blackened roar massive roar fills the crumbling sky
Shattered goal fills his soul with a ruthless cry
Stranger now, are his eyes, to this mystery
He hears the silence so loud
Crack of dawn, all is gone except the will to be
Now they will see what will be, blinded eyes to see

For whom the bell tolls
Time marches on
For whom the bell tolls

I’ve had quite a few people get intouch with me so far,  the conversations have been great, but I’m wondering who else is out there?

I’m a 21 year year old guy from the UK. I have anxiety, I get depressed, and I have suicidal thoughts. I don’t normally talk about my own issues, though I’m always upfront with others, I’ve found it easier to talk deeper about said issues with someone that actually relates. But I would also like to talk about other things, I guess it depends on whoever contacts me. I don’t care about your gender, I’m panromantic, not that it matters. I […]

Hello,

I’ve been aware of this site for a while now. Never posted before. But now I’m in kind of a dilemma and even though I don’t know any of you, I can’t think of anyone else I can really talk to about this.

My parents have come in to a bit of money and because of some weird thing where having more money will cause them problems with the government, they want to give it to me. I should point out here, BTW, that I’m not talking about doing anything illegal.

I don’t want it because frankly my poorness is perhaps one of the few things going […]

I need someone to talk to.

I’m 17 years old, and the pain I have felt isn’t even the worst I’ll ever experience. It’s sad to think I will have dozens more mental break downs, and thousands of tears will be shed. I’ve felt unbearable pain, but it hasn’t even been the worst it’ll be…

I’m not even an adult yet, and if I can’t handle the pain now imagine how bad it’ll be when I am one.. I’m not gonna be able to handle it.

My life will end voluntarily, I just know it….

i use to have friends and talk to people and no one knew that i use to cut, and then i stopped cutting and stopped talking to everyone and its been over a year now and i need someone to talk to because i keep wanting to cut again and i keep telling myself not to but i just need someone to talk to.

I really am not sure how to explain all this, but here it goes. Every since I can remember, I’ve been depressed. As a kid I’d stay up at night, wondering who would go to my funeral if I died, and I’d think about what would happen if I just dropped dead. In school I was always bullied and told that the world would be a better place if I just kill myself. I’ve never really fit in anywhere, I’ve always just coasted through life on my own. When I was 14, I got into a lot of trouble for […]

“The tree that would grow to heaven must send its roots to hell”  ..nietzsche

Is he mean “Only way to get rid of sadness is stay out of happiness” ?

i dont feel like i should really be here anymore! im so shamed of my self . Even my parents dont like me. and i can tell. Everytime i get into a car i always think “will we get in a wreck today?” iv been wanting to get into one so bad lately so i can just die and no try to kill my own self. Its really hard when all you are a disappointment to just about everyone in my family . no one ever notices me anymore its like im a ghost and im not even there just a voice thats never heard […]

Shows that even when we feel our weakest, we are the bravest at making the final choice. Welcome other views on this piece, affected me very much.

December 5, 2013
The Irony of Despair
By DAVID BROOKS
We’ve made some progress in understanding mental illnesses over the past few decades, and even come up with drugs to help ameliorate their effects. But we have not made any headway against suicide.

According to the World Health Organization, global suicide rates have increased by 60 percent over the past 45 years. The increase in this country is nothing like that, but between 1999 and 2010, the […]

Suicide.

Unfortunately I can’t say that I don’t understand why people do it… ‘Cause I do, I tried to commit suicide myself…
I was 15 when I started to cut my wrists, I don’t really know why, I just did it to forget the pain, to shut up the voices in my head. I guess I don’t really have a lot to say about this, I just… I just hope that some day I could stop doing it.

My boyfriend says he’s proud of me ’cause I haven’t done since august… but he doesn’t know I still do it and I don’t want him to know, because he […]

To be honest, 2013? Never thought I would even see the end of this year upcoming or even making it to 21 as of 14th November! Thought I would of died at 19-20 latest but that is when I met her. The one for me the one that gets me on the same wave length as me and I started living for her and not for myself since I never really cared if I lived or died. I am a self harmer… And… I know it is dumb but it makes me happy just a sense of relief almost in a way the pain a […]

Some say I have everything.. a family, a boyfriend, friends… But I don’t have someone to talk about what I feel.

How am I suppose to say the people I love I got raped? How am I suppose to say that my ex-boyfriend friend, raped me in is house, and no one saw?

I tried to kill my self before, because I cound’t see a purpose of being in this world, but rigth now… I just don’t know what to do and it’s killing me inside! I can’t go out my room, I can’t talk to anyone, I just want to talk…

A few months ago I tried to kill myself, i mean I didn’t really wanted to die because I can not tolerate the fact that my mum would cry about me.. She found out that I was cutting my wrists, I’ve never seen her so sad, so disappointed. She took me to a doctor and he made me take a lot of pills, stupid pills that would transforme me in a complete zombie! And I hated it so I stoped a few weeks ago, and I don’t feel any better… the pressure about the exams and grades and my looks, I’mm falling down again… The […]

For the longest time now, I have been living my life from the outskirts of life-always an observant, but never a participant. I have always felt so separated from everything-as if all were just a dream unfolding before my eyes, and if I were to attempt to reach out towards anything lurking before me, it would fade away from my touch.

Nothing has ever felt real to me-everything in my life has just felt like some sort of temporary sensation that fills me with places, faces, and feelings, yet they all come to pass just as quickly as they came. I try to decipher meaning from […]

My thoughts are dark and every time I try to make them known maybe get a little attention so someone can fix my messed head, everyone assumes its art. Wanted to kill before but that flame is gone these days. I only feel like taking myself out in style. Body full of bullets type of shit. I mean I feel lonely in a room full of people and the one girl that kept me sane and happy kinda told me she didn’t like me no more. My psycho self comes back. I feel pain a bit differently I see everything as a suicide object. Needles, […]

I need a stranger who will read this or not. Yesterday I was Christmas shopping and buying a present for my boyfriend, trying so hard to pick out something and I was so happy and excited. We have been together for around 5 months and I don’t think i still know what the word boyfriend means or being in a relationship. If i knew it, it wouldn’t be like this. So funny how things can change in less then a few hours. I don’t deserve to be happy, i don’t deserve to be loved at all. I should be dead!

My boyfriend went to spend the […]