Why do some people have this need to make others feel wrong about anything they say?  And make them feel guilty a lot?  And I don’t mean as in give the opinion an tht is it, I mean u can say anything that is your own opinion and they want to find ways to prove you wrong everyday.  You can say ur opinion about something and they will come back amonth later an say well I think you were wrong because of this even if they have a ridiculous reason for it.  I mean you cant give your opinion about anything without them trying to […]

Why can’t I just die in my sleep?! I need some nitrous oxide.

Watching The Walking Dead with a severe anxiety and depression disorder isn’t the best idea…

Ever since I discover this site, I’ve been coming here every night to read the posts. In a way it’s comforting to know I am not alone.

I have friends and family that care about me. Everyone in my life are moving along in their lives, I feel like I am being left behind. There is this sadness inside of me that I fight to keep down everyday. I have told one trusted friend about what I am feeling, I know I have to stay positive, I have to think there’s hope, there’ll be change. Yet, everyday I do the same thing day after day, see the same people, hear […]

It’s different this time though.

She added onto the question, not just.

What are you thinking?

This time, she asks.

What are you thinking, and please do not say , nothing, or not much.

She wants to know why I’ve ignored her for the day.

Why I am in this awkward state.

I wish I can tell her.

I’d be better off telling her to find me on the project again.

My stomach hurts again.

I will just go away.

Good night.

Who do you look up to/want to be growing up? Or who would you trade places with now? List as many as you like. Also famous or fictional and alive or dead.

I find myself on this site quite often.  Hell, I comment and post more on this than any other social networking site.  Maybe it’s the stories people share?  Maybe it’s being able to relate to others even though it’s only a small fraction of what most people post?  Or maybe it’s the fact that you can openly speak your mind optimistically or pessimistically without others judging you since no one knows each other here?  Either way, addicting.

One more week until I’m 18 and then maybe all this shit will get better. Over the weekend my friend and I got really messed up and she forced me to show her my razors and then threw them out. She was too messed up to remember that she did that, and the next day I went digging through the trash to find them. I found 2 old ones that I no longer use but not the one I had been using recently. I figured she had probably taken that one with her or something, so I gave up and took it as a sign […]

So im 13 but my life is amess. Im failing my exams, my parents hate me and I barley have any friends. Ive been wanting to commit suicide for god knows how long, but i dont have the guts to do it. Im a failure at life. Everything I do is wrong according to my mum and I always cry my self to sleep,  its exhausting. I wake up with sore eyes and everything. I want to go to a therapist but if i told my mum she would say its pointless and im pathetic:( please help on what I should do?   Thanks in […]

This isn’t how it’s supposed to be, it didn’t turn out the way I wanted it to. What can I do except rot here on the floor while everyone’s lives continue till their end. I AM NOT MEANT TO BE. there must have been a mistake the wrong soul entered this body at the wrong time, my soul wasn’t meant to live now, and so it shall die within me before I am 17.

It’s just so unfair!No matter how hard I try nobody seems to care!I know a kid that all he does during class is sit there and make annoying sounds, and he still gets better grades than me!And my special ed.teacher teases me! It’s no fair!

Once again I am realizing the way I feel guilty and crazy and I don’t trust my own opinions or actions anymore is because of the person around me.  So ALL the dogs ended up sick on an off for a while.  I try to tell this person it is probably because they wont stay out of the litter box and are eating cat crap al the time!  Well I fixed that so they cant get to the liter box anymore even though he constantly told me that wasn’t the cause.  Now for a week now the dogs havnt been sick at all anymore.  Today he […]

I feel like I’m suffocating, collapsing into the ibis of an endless battle against myself. It never stops. It only covers up itself with a fake smile and a forced laugh. Im screaming but no one hears me. I’m going to explode from the hopelessness, loss of joy.  How does this get better. I just want a answer to why I feel like I’m going to go crazy.
Am I crazy? 
I cry myself to sleep some nights saying please don’t let me wake up tomorrow. Let this be the end of it all.  The loneliness, the fear, the disappointment. I can’t take it.  Should […]

“We like companionship, see, but we can’t stand to be around people for very long. So we go get ourselves lost, come back for a while, then get the hell out again.”

Thanksgiving break just ended yesterday and I got to be home for five days, my first day back I did nothing. but the second day I spent sitting at home until my brother came to hang out for a few hours which was all good. Thursday was thanksgiving with my sisters family that I don’t know because we have different moms so it was awkward and all. But Friday was my favorite day of break and the reasoning behind why I am a horrible person. Friday I spent the day cleaning the apartment until my sisters boyfriend came home from work where we sat on […]

I wanted to exit today. My mental and physical pain grows worse each day. So I have my plan in order except for 1 ingredient. Never slept last night but by the time I get into my car I’m actually relieved and a sense of calmness comes over me. But despite the 5 places I tried I could not find it!!!

I’m so disappointed but I still have this calmness. I will order the product on-line tomorrow and should have it by the end of the week.

I know when it comes I will be ready and today’s feelings were only […]

I always wanted to prove her how much i love her.
All things happened to me is only becoz i love her so much.
I want to rewind my life only six hours if its possible ?
It feels hurt deep inside me.
Amy i love u more than my life.
I prayed a lot of gods to fall in love with […]

I can’t stand the fact that I stutter anymore.

I feel so done and drained. Some people say it doesn’t bother them that I stutter, well it bothers me. When it literally takes me five minutes to finish off one sentence how can it not bother me? How I am supposed to gain confidence or talk to a girl?

It’s also a huge reason why I developed SA and depression.

Can’t be bothered to try anymore and fail……….

I truly feel that the way I’m going to leave this world is suicide. I feel like I wasn’t built for this world and I wasn’t dealt a very great hand. I have PTSD and my depression just keeps getting worse. My mind tells me that I should just kill myself and get the fuck outta this life. I’m just so ready to get in my car, find a garage, and turn the ignition on.

i’m weak.

really, really, really weak.

I don’t know how much longer i can take it.

im aware my capitalization is shit but i dont even care right now.

im so desperate for death

i honestly wish a truck would come through my bedroom window.

all i want for christmas is to be 6 ft under.