why do people make such a big deal of self-harmers if they dont want to cut then so be it but others want to because the emotional pain gets too much for them. What is so wrong with being a a cutter some dont want to be a self harmer but it is so hard to stop the pain relif . so tell me something if they want to cut or kill themselves what is so wrong with just allowing them to do it.
why do poeple drag us down? why is it that when we are friends with people and the thrid one is always bitchy? dont get me wrong i love her but the thing is it isnt a friendship if its full of arguing but the thing is pretending to self harm just to fit in isnt the thing to do thats just gonna make the real cutters in the friendship group cut even more! i dont complain because realloy i couldnt give two f***s because they need to know what to do before i rant at them, i feel so down when i cut i […]
It’s nighttime here and I’m seriously depressed. I’m trying to not let myself get too bad, but I’m all alone and that’s when things so so bad for me. I have no one to talk to and I find myself just staring at the tv blankly just thinking of things I shouldn’t be. I feel a panic attack that is right under the skin, ready to come out. I am trying reeeally hard to fight it, but I have nothing to get my thoughts elsewhere. Idk, maybe I am jus crazy…That’s the way I feel anyway. I hate always feeling like this. I wish it […]
I actually really want someone to punch me. Like when I’m feeling really frustrated and angry I just wish someone would hurt me. I want to feel the solid strike of justice hitting my body, the pain rippling through my body. Punishment for my sins.
I’ve heard it all, ” It’s bad, your going to get hurt, what a stupid thing to do”. So what? Of course I’m going to get hurt, so what if it’s “bad”, and yes, I know it’s a stupid thing to do! I don’t care about the risks. When I’m done, I feel emptied of the pain and the clouds of anger. It feels like a painful kind of beautiful, almost indescribable… So I throw common sense out the window and grasp onto the small piece of artificial happiness.
I pushed another person away today. I push every fucking person away. I feel like people would be better without me in their lives. I cause nothing but pain and all I want to do is hurt myself. I can’t control my emotions, especially my anger and I just snap all the time. It scares my girlfriend and I wish I could make her life better. The only way I feel I can do that is by ending my life. I don’t want to die but it is what’s best for everyone else. I feel like over-dosing today. I want to but I’m scared. I […]
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Things are funny sometimes. Its funny how someone can care (or pretend to care) for someone and then just disappear. The man that saved my life vanished when I needed him, but he made that choice. He chose to leave me alone in the darkness, when all I need was a helping hand. He left me there to die and I almost did. I’m trying so hard to stay alive, hell keeping myself from grabbing the blade is a chore sometime. All I want to do is rip into my thigh a couple good times. I graduate from college in 6 weeks, but that’s nothing. […]
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I read your stories and sometimes I find myself feeling jealous of how bad some of you have it. I haven’t gone through anything compared to many of you and I still want to die. I mean really, really want to die. And up until 4 months ago I was the life of the party. Full of so much positive energy we’d all want to kick my ass. I’d talk to strangers for hours about how lucky we were to be alive & now…I’m a complete shut-in. No job, no contact with friends, no cell phone. Nothing. I had […]
I wish i was better at putting my feelings into words because i really need to fucking let it out. My whole life has been full of constant abuse. Emotionally & physically abused by my bpd mom my entire life. Sexually abused by the deacon in my parents church as a child. Raped by my “big shot ” televangelist father as a teenager . Yes, i lost my fuckin virginity to my dad. It makes me sick to my stomach. He was such a piece of shit. I am so glad he died in 2011. I hope maggots have eaten his rotting flesh…and most recently […]
Don’t say I’m better off dead, cause heaven’s full and hell won’t have me.                                  Can you help me to stop sinking?                                                     […]
A pigeon actually flew into my house today. Â It tore the house up flying around. Â I finally caught the bird with a blanket and it pecked open my hand pretty bad when I went to throw it back outside.
This past weekend I was able to get away and see some old friends of mine; and what a breath of fresh air it was. For the first time in a long time I was happy and enjoyed myself and didn’t think once about cutting. I was worried about seeing my friends with noticeable cuts but when they saw it they didn’t freak out. They hugged me and told me to call them and talk to them when I was sad, and to try and hold on for when they come home. It was really nice to have some confirmation that my real friends cared […]
Hey, I never really did one of these posts, so fuck it, I’ll go ahead
Long Story short, I got jilted, again, I don’t know how many times, but this will be my final time, tomorrow I might go into a 30 story tall building, and just jump. I don’t want to go into details, but all I can say is that I don’t want to be alone or get rejected for being uninteresting, boring, or just having bad luck because some other dude got her first. I don’t want to back down, get detained, and go to involuntary treatment if I fail to jump and […]
I wish you never came I wish I didn’t have to live through another miserable day. Another day full of bullshit from my teachers and mom. Another day of trying to hide my scars. Another day of wishing I was someone else anybody else. Another day of hell.
Well I was going thru Google and And I found this website best way to let my feelings out..and that people will understand me. My life has always been depressing, sad, and I’ve always felt alone even when people claim to say they will always be here for me. I’ve been put down plenty of times in my life, used like if I was nothing and I’ve been betrayed by the people who they say in this world will never betray you because their “family” that isn’t true. Even family hurts you, your own blood can do so much damage to you just like if […]
I have attempted suicide and other crazy things and been locked up multiple times. These things happened when I was still a minor and they said if I tried again as an adult and got caught my punishment would be a lot worse. Basically I’m wondering if anyone knows how to prevent getting locked in a looney bin should I get caught and resuscitated? Also, my parents are still legally the people who get to choose what happens to me if I should be “mentally incapable”, and they would lock me in a state home indefinitely.
Does anyone know how a 19 year old might purchase a gun in the state of Illinois?
A scar for every story to tell, every meaning every truth, every blood dripping hell. Every time you cut the pain, you carnt see every small blue vein.
you always hear how self harmers are emo< or attention seekers but self-harm is no joke, it takes a lot of getting to the point turning mental pain into physical pain. When you sit there and make fun of them, your just making them pull down their sleeves, put on a pair of pants, and hide their skin even more. your pushing them further into a hole, and if you don't be careful what you say, that whole will turn into their grave !!