dear R,

I can relate to how your feeling, I really can. I can imagine how hurt and angry you must feel. You need to shake that mindset off the one where you aren’t good enough, the one where you need to be saved by someone else. You have to matter to yourself the most important thing about life is not to be loved or cared about by other people but to love and care about yourself. You can’t depend on someone to save you, your wasting time waiting for someone when all this time you have yourself. I know none of this is easy to do but I was in a place like where you are and I didn’t love myself. I felt like someone needed to love me and care about me if not then I would crumble. I cried for years wondering when someone was going to come and save me until one day I loved myself and I cared about myself enough to save myself from my demons. You are good enough that decision can’t be made by anyone but yourself you have all the power. I hope that you can realize that faster then it took me. Best wishes to you.

I know that right now you see it that way but I know that you can do it alone because your stronger than you think. I felt the same way like i was too weak like the pain and struggle was too much to go through on my own. But here I am, I made it through nightmare after nightmare all ALONE, I did it. I never thought I would be able to do it but i did. No matter how horrible things are how much it hurts don’t ever let go of hope, its what saved me and continues to save me. Life seems hopeless but I don’t care what anyone says or thinks I am gonna hope. The best revenge in the world is to prove everyone wrong. You have no idea how many times I was told I was nothing that I was insignificant and I made a promise to myself that I will accomplish everything people told me I couldn’t do. And I believe in you I know you can do this!!