Idk.. I think there is a misconception about the Internet, like it’s suppose to be a friendly free for all of fairness. Especially here on SP. here on this site you are gonna run into a lot of people who feel that there is something very wrong with the world and people are the main focus. So expect judgement here, at home, at school…everywhere. I didn’t escape judgement then or now, and I promise you won’t either. It’s not anyone’s fault how you take that judgement. Some one can call me a fucking worthless shit, and it’s my fault if I want to cry about […]

confused, scared, broke and nothing to live for.  I too wish I had a way to end it all without the possibility of a failure.  Makes me angry that even suicide has to be such an inaccessible thing and has to be so carefully executed.  Wish things were more available than they were.  Seems any lethal drug like a sleeping pill is hard to get even in Mexico.

I feel like this is a good band for depressed people. They deal with dark topics and set it to a trance-y sound. Plus this video’s visually intense and I love it/I’d recommend anything by them, although they only have one album out so far.

“I don’t know where I went wrong,” — It’s a thought I surmise that a lot of people in this situation must have had floating around in their head at least once before. But I’m not certain whether I was ever properly ‘right.’

I know that I’m lazy— the literal embodiment of the sin of sloth. I know I’ve been a financial and emotional burden on my family. I know I’ve been caught in the cyclical mindset of negativity for much too long. I know how many once-close friends and acquaintances have walked out after having finally given up after becoming sick of my blatant unwillingness […]

Do you guys got one person on this world that truly loves you?  Unconditionally?  Somebody you could share secrets with or just sit and be quiet with?  Somebody that would come looking for you if you were lost?  Or have you never had that?

others others others. how much i’m obsessed with others. everything has turned upside down. the things that i used to despise in others have all now come in me…really, all of them. i used to despise lies & hypocrisy, and now i’m myself hell of a liar; i used to promote individualism, and now so many of my opinions are shaped by others; i used to despise their shallowness, and now who is more shallow than me. as Morpheus said when humans became slave of machines, ‘it seems fate is not without a sense of irony’. or maybe all these things were always within me, […]

WARNING: This is a rant and even though most of this may not make sense, I just need to get this out.

Have you every had anyone tell you how popular you are and for those few seconds, you actually believe. I’m cheerleader, I don’t have any enemies (as far as I know), I have a 4.0 GPA, and I have a lot of friends. What could I possible hate about my life?

I remember how when I was little, I could go to my mom and tell her anything. All my troubles and my worries but now, I’m holding back. I know I can’t tell her […]

why doesn’t anyone care?

Those pretty little lies
Put a smile on my pretty little lips
Your pretty little eyes
Play pretty little tricks
Your deceiving
I’m unbelieving

You cheat
You lie
Your words so sweet
I can’t deny
Your pretty little lies
Blind my pretty little eyes

I do without thinking
I live without breathing
I can’t keep regretting
I can’t keep believing
Your pretty little lies
Your pretty little lies

I can’t keep my pretty little lips smiling
I know you deceiver
I can’t keep my pretty little eyes from crying
I know you believer

I fall apart
Because of your pretty little […]

What is keeping you alive / preventing you to commit suicide?

I will discover tomo if I still have a job or not, this has hit me harder than most!! Unlike most people who work to live I happen to live to work…I love my job and spend most of my life there, having nearly working myself half to death doing upto 90hrs a week for the past 3 months trying to make the buildings modification perfect I made a mistake.

A failure of communication between myself and another member of staff and then me listening to a senior member of staff who I genuinely respect and trust and doing as she asked me to do unquestioningly […]

hi, i’m julie.

just found this site today and i’m glad i did. thank you for being here. just reading some of the posts has helped me feel less alone.

i called a suicide hotline, the lady sounded like she didn’t want to be bothered, so i hung up.

i’m one of those people who asks for help and have found people who will listen (i paid a therapist to listen as well) but that’s as far as it goes. i get so sick of telling my poor me story. i i have also found people who have passed judgement. they are so helpful. 😉

my story starts with […]

For the past three years iv been super depressed and attempted suicide twice, thought about it probably about 20 times. Nobody knows whats going on, smiling is easier then expressing the pain. Lately its been getting to close, these thoughts are tearing me in two and a few days ago i almost did it. I was all set to make it my last night, i wrote about why i was doing it. I kept thinking if i cant love myself then nobody can. I got a sharp object and almost did it but heard my mom get up in the middle of the nght, seeing […]

I have been thinking alot about my final “playlist” — songs that emphatically speak to my despair and support my decision to die. Here are a few: Eddie Vedder’s entire “Into the Wild” soundtrack; “Find the River” “Aftermath,” “Try Not to Breathe” and of course “Its The End of the World As We Know It” from Michael Stipe and REM. Jeff Buckley or KD Lang’s “Hallelujah” open to all styles and motifs, but wonder what other folks have as their misery songs.

So, for all intensive purposes my name is Kat, and I’m almost 17 years old. I am a junior in high school, i am involved in Theatre, Choir, Winterguard, and occasionally Martial arts. I have friends who love me, but their love just isn’t enough. I dread going home everyday because I know that my mother will soon be there and I have to obey her every command. If i even show the slightest rebellion, it turns into a shouting match of her telling me how worthless I am and that a child’s place in this world is to be seen and not heard. We […]

iv done it agen iv fallen in love why am i so esey im finding nower days that im protending to be happy cos iv given in iv got my life now so i should be happy right wrong i still think of it to this day i have the razor i think one day ill smile and trow it away or one day ill smile shy away some were smoke some weed and take a pill and slip away… nice isunt it the thort but if like me you have died once youill know its not pece full the first 5 secions yes but […]

You are all great people in my mind. You recognize that there is seriously something wrong with the world and in your own lives, and you acknowledge that fact with all of your posts. You reflect, you teach, and you inspire us all to take action in our own lives. So to you I say.. Thank you all for being alive!

In no particular order:

@Clevername- I started coming to this sight a month or 2 after you first popped up, but since I’ve been here I’ve realized that this site suffers without you and your opinion. So it prompts the question.. How did this site […]

My name is Amanda.. I’m new here, I’ve been through a lot and I’d like to share some of my life with people that may have gone through the same. I can tell you. Lots of things have happened in 13 years

I bought another rat today so Percy could have a friend. My boyfriend and I have named him Nanners and he’s got a little nick in his ear. I wish I could have friends but like my rats, I’d have to buy those, too. Why is it that some people only use and keep using until they’ve exhausted all their resources and trust and loyalty? Why is it that I’m a good friend and put up with the shit my ‘friends’ put me through? Why can’t I be one of my beloved rats? At least then I wouldn’t have to worry about people using me.

I’m […]

I have lost the ability to feel happiness. Today, the guy I like, let’s call him A, kissed me. I think I enjoyed it. But then I got in my car, something felt wrong. Then I got home, the feeling got even worse. Now I sit here, three hours later, feeling depressed angry and guilty. I think I still feel for my ex. I don’t want to. It’s been almost 10 months, I want to be done with him. But he won’t go away. I feel so bad for feeling like this, when A should make me so happy, and is so understanding. I’m just […]