Smoking gun

We’ve lost it all

The love is gone.

The more I try to stay, the more I want to go… Let me go. Just please let me go…

I just realized today is the day I got a call from my ex best friends mom that he had snapped and shot a man for cutting in front of him in line at a Wingstop.

What is your purpose for being on SP?

What do you hope to get out of it?

What keeps you coming back?

How long do you plan to be here?

i really dont like people give them any opportunity and they will hurt u and take advantage of ur vulnerabilities trusting in people just leads to dissapointment and expecting people to do the right thing leads to even more disappointment even ur family will take whoevers side is against u they wont listen to ur argument either all they care about is what u did wrong not wat anyone else has done to u. the day i can sustain myself monetarily will b the day i leave my family all behind forever i wont write wont visit not even if theyve been hospitalized after leaving […]

I am considered a social parasite.  At this point I can actually agree with societies views.  I know what I am.  I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder since the age of 16.  I have been in and out of hospitals most of my life for my failures to conform to the everyday norms.

I actually have been doing very good with myself the last two years.  I am off medications, live on my own and have not been to any doctors or hospitals in this duration of time.   I do not however work anymore.  I pay my bills with disability and use food stamps […]

It’s getting easier to swallow the pain and feel the pressure release. The lines are getting deeper and less hesitant…. It kind of feels like I’m healing backwards….

I am surrounded by an incredible sadness. It lives inside of me, in the people that I met, it is around me, it is everywhere. It is me.
Or well, I don’t know if you can call it an actual sadness, maybe just more emptiness. That is what I feel. I feel empty.
Like a shallow shell, just wandering around in the world, with no care for anything or anybody.
I just think that I have given up in a way. I see no point in fighting, because I don’t feel like there is anything to fight. This is just who I am, maybe this […]

Do you ever just start crying randomly because you think about how much of a mess your life has become? Generally I can block it out and fill it with distractions but tonight, that loneliness hit hard. It’s that type of deep loneliness that even a person being with you wouldn’t fill. It feels unfillable. I try my best to avoid thinking of that, but today it just got me.

The heights humans can go to are inspiring but the depths humans can sink to are equally as endless and I’m testing the path I never wanted to test. Life just  sucks when you suck. Nothin […]

okay, I wanna kill myself so bad. i get bullied everyday. and now to make it all worse my best friend is dating the guy i’m in love with. Cutting int good enough for me. I hate my life and i wanna end it. What should i do?

I’m scared to get close and i hate being alone.
I long for that feeling to not feel at all.
The higher i get, the lower i’ll sink.
I can’t drown my demons, they know how to swim.

I can’t leave him. I don’t know why, but every time I try to plan it, he either messages me, calls me, or even walks up to me. I want to die, but I just can’t ditch him like that…

anonymity on the internet is an illusion so if someone really wanted to look up the things I wrote online and who I really was they probably could.. but who would anyways?

I’ve been waking up at 6 am every single day.. no matter if i slept at 3 am, was drunk, was so tired from school, I always automatically wake up at 6.. I guess that’s a sign of depression..

but in any case I think a part of growing up is realizing how shitty life is and just.. being patient with that fact.. honestly if I think about it my life isn’t all […]

Anyone who knows where Dave_N is or what happened to him? I really haven’t seen him for a long time. I really wanna know a little bit more about why he disappeared and so, because I felt related to him in some way and he lived like 5 miles away from me, but I don’t know exactly where. Any information is welcome. Please help me!!

Anyone have a good way of commiting suicide?

Sometimes, there isn’t always a light at the end of the tunnel.

Sometimes, there is light at the begining of the tunnel and we must take the light into the darkenss with us, into the unknown.

You must hold that light close and value it for being all that you have.

Although some lights are brighter, we must be thankful for what we are given to guide us, and not being left to total blindness.

We must stay positive that ,even though we can’t see what awaits for us at the end of the tunnel, we can still find our way through the confusion.

It […]

I have been dead for years now and am ready to check out now…its time…I dont want to go into details of my life…all I can say is emotional and physical pain has worn me out…I do not want to be here anymore..I cant…I have tried to survive but I am drowning…sadly there is no one out there for me…no one…everyone I cared about…every one I thought cared for me is now gone…the people(person really) left in my life do not encourage suicide but left me emotionally long ago so I do not have a support system…not that I ever did…my physician have given up […]

Not only do they not believe in anything out-of-the-ordinary or supernatural, they get really pissed off when you say you do believe. The reaction is usually like this: “Hey, seems like someone’s been watching too many horror flicks”, or “come on, it’s plain bullshit, where’d you hear it?” – and these are still some “mild” responses, others spare no hurtful remarks, though I won’t mention them.

But what if that uncanny thing IS the most obvious and reasonable explanation? No, there still will be denial, because it’s easier to pronounce someone crazy than acknowledge stories like that we see in movies tell a bit of truth. […]

I love him but I never seem to do anything right in his eyes. He smiles and laughs with others but when I try to talk to him his voice is cold and harsh like he can’t wait for me to just leave him alone. Then when I get up set he says I’m causing drama and I need to stop. Guess I’ll just stop having emotions all together, that would be best for me

So, I have been a cutter for years, but I stopped four months ago, and haven’t since, until tonight. I was doing so well, but things have been going wrong lately, and im really depressed, and i couldn’t help myself. I am sixteen and live on my own, and  I thought i would be fine if i just cut once just to get it out, but i’m having a very hard time stopping. I feel like i need to keep doing ‘ just one more’; only thing is, there is always another just one more after. I don’t know how to stop. Please help, and […]