Confusion is your masterpiece
You find peace in my misery
So what are these walls for exactly?
Maybe to save myself from hypocrisy?
I told you that I was broken
You shattered me with your words spoken
Never will we be forever
Not now, not ever
You coward, you chose walk away for sake of saving face
You bastard, you live your life to give to take
So when I die
This will be you’re choice
If I die
Will you cry tonight?

There’s another reason again
To let you break me
So I don’t have to hurt myself
You’ll do it for me
So can […]

Sometimes I wish I could be in a car accident, not for the attention. So if I woke up I could see who actually cares, who sat there and thought even for a second “damn I hope she survives.” and if I didn’t wake up, I wouldnt have to worry about them knowing it was suicide. 
  Sometimes I wish that I was normal. You know, actually wantedd? With friends that didn’t ditch me, backstabbing me or using me. I dont want to be stuck inside 24/7, the only times i go out is when i ask, or they want something, not the People who only […]

Spring, a time for new begins apparently.  New life. New loves. New Cleaning products. Pass the Clorox and excuse the pun.

I just don’t care anymore. I thought I didn’t care before, but I don’t inside at all now, i didnt realise I could get worse. I don’t care for much because I can’t, it isn’t in me. I just stare blankly all day.
There’s plenty of times where I know I should feel sad, but I just don’t. There are many tears that never escape my eyes. Any thoughts I have leave my head and make it as barren as it was before I felt anything. I’ve lost all of my emotion trying to cope, my essence is fading away to my depression, my […]

So..Many people here want to end their lives,or anyway feel pain. Why others let it happen? Seriously! I used to cut myself (Im still feelin pain,but I try to stop) and everybody’ve been sayin ”Its for attention”. NO *****,its not for attention. You havent walked a mile in our shoes,and you think we are too dramatic because YOU live in your perfect little world! But know what? We need help for sure,and if you cant help us,its okay. BUT DONT CRITICISE WHAT YOU CANT UNDERSTAND.:3 Honestly it kills me when i see people treat us like strangers. We’re just different and we need help. But we […]

Y’know whaat, fuck this, cancer IS the best thing that’s happy to me…or am I just in denial. meh whatever idc anymore if I survive, I survive, If I die, I die….maybe my mom is right…maybe I am actually something. Well anyways I have removal surgery again tomorrow. Well i gtg, cause it’s time for me to take a walk through the hospital.

You ignorant prick!! you coward!! you dont desteve me… But I love you… i cant help myself… So tonightIll take the sleeping pills and pass away from this wretched place

I’ve stopped believing that it’s possible for me to couple up with another human being. I’ve started believing that I’m somewhere deep on the autism spectrum, unable to assimilate into society without great pains. Like an apathetic gardener, I’ve stopped tending to my human relationships, both family and friends. I no longer see a point in continuing to put effort into making others happy; nobody makes me happy. I can’t imagine spending any amount of time listening to some woman complain and gossip just so I can get at her loins. I hate the boarish, single minded nature of most men. I truly hate this […]

I think the title speaks for itself . I’m not wanted here .

I’m an 18 year old male,

My parents disowned me, and unregistered me from the home. I’m basically homeless now. And I’ll likely will do as my parents asked.

I’m not their son anymore probably because of these reasons.
– My School, who suspended me on the regards of having hospitalized care for my migralepsy.
– My health, because I’ve been suffering from chronic migraine, cluster migraine and migralepsy for the past 10 years, school started to deteriorate at some point and when I flunked due to deteriorating health issues I couldn’t get a job obviously.
– My spirituality, my parents are christian and I’m baptized but […]

Any suggustians?

I have been battling for a very long time now. Everyday I have to justify to myself why I’m still here. Even though I do have to keep going through it everyday, every battle that I win against myself has kept me around this long. I don’t know what else to do but try and get help when each battle is becoming harder and harder to win, so I got on the computer and sought help. I’ve tried talking with friends, talking with family, but its all too personal and just makes it harder, and for some stupid reason I feel like as I am […]

.I feel so depressed, I feel like i’m becoming emotionally and physically weaker! I just feel so dull and sick that I don’t even want to wake up in the mornings and feel like i have no hope :'( No one accepts me the way i am and I have become a bit boring since my depression. Idk if its because of that or not though…=( Gahh sorry for being dramatic but i feel very bad nowadays I’ve been lonelier than ever before as my self-proclaimed “best friends” don’t even message me or call me or anything. I understand that I go to a different […]

Every time I cut…No one asks “Hey that looks bad what happened?” Or “You should get help” The look at me and say “Oh your one of those people” Which tells me that no one cares about why i do it or if i do it…..

My husband has left me. I cant take it. Why is God letting me suffer? Why is he letting my husband hurt me like this? Our marriage hasnt been the best the past year and now its officially over. I dont want this. We have a newborn and I think im pregnant again. My husband says im nothing to him and he hopes i kill myself. He practically cheers me on to do it. Ive cried and begged God to help me. But i dont get anything. I know i shouldnt want to die cause of my kids. But my husband says they are better […]

What’s the point in posting your deepest feelings when nobody gives a crap enough to reply?

i love to hear the sound of your pain
i love the feel of the blood in your veins
your heart beats at an elevated rate
do you think you can escape?
inside these walls i rein supreme
i can torture you in any way i dream
its not so different from what you did to me
so mother fucker i want to hear you scream!!!!!
you beat me and hurt me
you twisted and turned me
i was your pawn and now im king
so fight the matador in his ring
whats that you say?
your sorry?
a little late for a sob story

Im a little drugged right now. I am most nights. Its the only way I came sleep. You people dont know me but someone give me one reason to keep living… cuz this whole it gets better bullshit is something you tell someone to make them .shut up… I need a real answer….please

im sitting here and its past mid night
regretting ever little thing that happened in life
you cant take back the hands of time
the situations fit the crime
you got to move on
but moving is hard
since you concede your self to living in the dark
ive got no reason to be happy, or sad
i live my days always mad
mad at what? i don’t fucking know
i think sometimes its all for show
you have to feel something deep inside
so why not get pissed? its not easy to hide
then people will think your real,
people will think you feel

The guy i’ve been in love with for the past year is my everything.. but recently he completely changed!! hes continuously hurt me over and over again. Then recently.. i attempted to kill myself and he texted my sister saying this ” ahaha well you should really come out!! come on i’ll help make sure you have a good time, your sisters saying she’s gonna kill herself can u call her? ugh such a buzz kill! dont tell her i said that” and then continues on to beg my sister who is his exact age to come out to eden with him and his friends. […]