I didn’t want to have to try any harder to accept my problems, but since my boyfriend didn’t believe me, I had to argue what I already hate to be true. You’re provoked to defend something you already hate—something you already didn’t want to be thinking about. He doesn’t believe that mental health problems exist. Having to open my mouth to convince him that he’s wrong makes me cringe at myself, because who wants to say, “Yes, I am TOO depressed!†It’s embarrassing, and counteractive, and you sound like all the other idiots who think they know something about being sad. Sometimes people are just […]
Hello again. I know that i havent been on in about a week, And that week has been sluggish. I came home to my siblings calling me names and my mom and brother discussing how weird i am and whatnot. I havent cut since what? Tuesday and i have been really off. I have this project and one of the questions is “Your Top 10 regrets” and i dont know if i should go all out and be true, or keep it simple and lie, because my family and teacher will read it? I have a lot of regrets and some of them are secrets.
I […]
I was 11 years old when my older sister told me she was raped. She was drunk and let it spill with tears pouring out as well. My parents have never been there for us, blinded by their own lives and misery. I loved my sister with everything I had. And though I knew close to nothing about this life, I put my heart, soul, and mind into carrying her destruction. Years that followed brought pain, and abandonment. Coked up and too much to handle, the police took my sister and world from me again and again. A broken heart ruined her, and I, alone […]
Dearest strangers and friends,
Today I called my dad’s girlfriend to pick me up at the crossroad in front of my school since I was feeling down. ( okay, very down. ‘that building is high… the light is red, I could jump in front of…. would I break my neck if….’) When I called her I was still at the bus and I haven’t been in the school building. She picked me up, took me home and called my dad who called my GP. He wil fill in a ‘crisisform’ so I will get a psychiatrist right away.
I’m so happy, but scared as well. What can […]
I have a husband and daughter who love me very much. My doctor tells me that if I kill myself, they will never get over it. For their sakes, I am still here. I fail at everything I do. I can’t keep a job, because I can’t handle the stress. There are two people on this whole planet who care about what happens to me. Nobody else cares. And now I have to find another job. How do I tell a prospective employer that I’m Bipolar and have PTSD and that I will be a really good, hardworking employee until some life event sets me […]
Hi,
I’ve read through a lot of the articles on here and  if anything it’s been reassuring to know I’m not alone in the way that I feel. I don’t want to live anymore. I’m 25 and used to be on chatrooms when I was a teenager. I was one of the people you’d get consoling someone who had been contemplating suicide. I always believed that life would always get better and there would always be people to turn to. In fact, as well as getting better, life could also get worse, which is the side of the knife I find myself on now. I have […]
The fact is that I need to be someplace else! The major problem that I have towards my existence on earth. I can not do anything in my situation. Given a chance I’ll explain. Very well trying to be old-fashioned I knocked a girlfriend up 11 years ago. While coming in conflict with my career choice, I decided I needed to marry her &support a young offspring. I change my career path from being Involved in aviation to construction worker, which was just fine. Never really enjoying my merriage, but putting up with it for the sake of my son, knowing I will have to […]
I almost killed myself on Dec 8th. Just two days ago. I can’t really explain what happened, but I know I could of died. Something my boyfriend did just pushed me over the edge but truth is, it wasn’t about him at all. I’ve been feeling this pain. This excruciating pain that I can’t explain every moment I‘m awake. Everyday I wake up, and force myself out of bed. I try to hide it, and for the most part people buy it. One day I met up with some people from work, and one of the girls said to me she would die to […]
Hi my name is angelenia and i have started a blog and facebook page to make people aware of the pain that is out there.. I know many of u might not be willing but i am looking for volunteer who will share there story with all of my facebook page and blog.. If you are willing please contact willyoustopthehurt@yahoo.com with your name age and your story. but dont for get to include a picture so we can see you. If you dont feel okay with the picture its fine. But stay positive and smile everyone
http://youhavethestrength.blogspot.com/
I always keep my promises.
This one I didn’t even tell a living soul.
My eldest brother committed suicide, the same night I tried. As I comforted my mom I had the marks on my arm and neck (always hidden for Truly I’m a coward at it, and know I won’t succede, its more for the release I suppose. Though that night I went further than before) I was still hazy from the meds I O/D’d on. I swore to myself, and partly to him that I would never do that again. I saw my familly destoyed in that instance; and I cried for myself.
Horribly I feel […]
Longs
lungs are breathing
heart is beating
brain is functioning..
eyes blink
fingers point
cheeks blush.
blood is racing
racing through my viens
physically alive without a doubt
Wake again, feeling as empty as possible. Can’t go back to sleep to escape the feelings. Another completly pointless day awaits me. Can’t wait to sleep forever <3
really i want to know wat wud be the life after death..i want to know wat are essence of death..creating our own death willingly is called suicide.i m happy tat der is something after life tat is death..
Started off ok. Almost good. And its going into the shitter faster than I can bail out the water. Someone please tell me how to hang on. I dont know how. I hate the holidays. I am alone. I feel horrible right now. It comes and goes. I just need a reason to keep clawing to hold on – I dont want to die – I want the pain to stop.
Empty
alone
numb
I find that when I become angry at other people, I tend to punish myself or hate myself. I don’t know why I do that.
i can’t do this anymore, i want to dissapar and die, theres no point in living or breathing when i know both the people i care for, one thinks i’m a freak, the other wants me dead, or dosent give a fuck about my life.
The second one in question, his innitals are HD, he hates my guts as once i told people i loved him he found his brother laughing and calling me his girlfriend, i have to admit, after two years of that i really dont like him doing that now, every time i see him he says it and its not helping me […]
This is my first post, I’m only fourteen, and I’m not sure I belong here, all I know is that I want the pain to stop, even for a little while.
Never doe’s though, when I’m at school with my people (Possibly friends, although I think they only tolerate me) I feel a little better, but then I say the wrong thing or I see my best friend with his girlfriend and it reminds me of how lonely I am, the sun goes out and I hide again.
They say they’re my friends, they say they like me, but how?Why? How can the ex-girlfriend I hurt so […]
Suicide, suicide Your presence is near
Suicide, suicide I wish you were here
Suicide, suicide Take me away
Suicide, suicide Please make it today
Suicide, suicide An answer, for me
Suicide, suicide I need to escape, be free
Suicide, suicide I’ve had too much
Suicide, suicide Take me, do your touch
Suicide, suicide Leave the rest behind
Suicide, suicide You’re all over my mind
Suicide, suicide Let me pass in peace
Suicide, suicide I need to release
so today was crap day i felt so insecure like everyone at school hated me, like tey all wanted me dead. last night i dobed my twin sister into my mum about something now she hates me. she is writing nasty comments about me on facebook and is sending nasty messages about me to her facbook friends. i think to myself if my own twin sister is doing that stuff can you imagine what everyone else is doing and saying about me. today in music their was 2 couch chairs next to each other there was a boy who is in my class on one […]