My dad committed suicide. He hung himself. These are awful words to say and I can never, ever get the image out of my head, my dad had cancer, awful cancer, he had a reason. There is no other reason to do this to your family or yourself. I miss him with every second that passes. Damn it, I want my dad back…now, I want to call him. No matter what you are or what you are going through, someone wants to talk to you. Don’t do this to someone. I loved my dad, I still do. No moment passes that I don’t love him. […]
That night…tall grass bathed in moonlight. The stars sparkle brightly as the North Pole’s breath travels down to where we are and dances across your cheek. Tall grass and white flowers..in that place  next to the brook and that wise old tree. We would stretch out between the roots under the spot where you carved our initials when we were young. The place where we fell in love, where you first tried to kiss me and I pulled away and ran as you chased me until i tripped over a secret root and you fell on top of me. Dear God we were only 13 and 14 […]
This one’s pretty long, sorry if I bore anyone. I should preface by saying that I’ve been depressed for four years. I was formally diagnosed with major depressive disorder January of this year, but I knew long before. I’ve never had a true friend, anything even close to a relationship (been led on a few dozen times), and I feel alone constantly. Recently my diagnosis was changed to suggest the cause of my pain is ADD. I’m not sure if the doctors are right, but amphetamines are helping a bit lately. This is the story of the last eight months or so, from the first […]
Hi, I’m HangedKiller, and this is my story.
Obviously, HangedKiller is not my real name. I don’t know why I’m talking about this on the internet, but there’s something screaming inside of me.
I attempted suicide by hanging the summer of 2009.
Asian families have no room for your opinions or your dreams. I became accustomed to the ‘sit down and shut up’ routine.
Becoming used to being nothing is so horrible.
Unfortunately, I couldn’t live up to their expectations. No matter how much I lived for their ideals, it started falling apart in sophomore year of high school. I was a 4.0 student until then, and then depression hit […]
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I last posted about a year ago. I was confused, my life sucked, I hated my job, and who I was, but I still had an awesome girl who loved me, and kept me going. I managed to pick myself up, got a new job which I actually enjoyed and was good at. I had plans to be happier, she helped me through it. In keeping her happy, in living for her, I was happy. Now however, that has all changed.
A couple of months ago, she left me for someone else, weeks after I had blown my entire paycheck on her birthday. My life spiraled […]
I’m going crazy again.
The thoughts are coming back .. I feel like I’m so close to the edge right now, and the littlest thing is getting ready to appear and push me over.
I’m tired of going through this same process over and over, everyday. I’m tired of crying and asking why all of this is happening. Why, especially when I was starting to feel better, why did things just have to spiral back down again. I’m seriously about to blow up. I’m tired…
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I just can’t take it anymore. I got through high school, came to college expecting things to change, and they were getting better. Then all at once my mood starts shifting again. The bad thoughts come back. All I do is drink my pain away, but tonight I’m staying sober and all I can think about is just ending it. I hate waking up, I hate people, I hate myself most of all. I hate who I am, how I act, and my life outlook. My depression is fueled by the anger I have for what a piece of shit I am. I really really […]
There’s been a lot of suicides lately in my town. It brings back my own depression and having no one there to vent to, I am now turning to this site to let my frustation out. I’ve been lurking and I now feel strong enough to finally let everything out. I don’t think I’ve ever told my whole story, from birth to present times, in one sitting. So here I am, this is me, and this is my story.
My mother had trouble conceiving and after a miscarriage, I was born. I was her pride and joy. She wanted me to be perfect, like her; straight A’s, […]
You told me what you needed, but I didn’t hear.
You screamed what you needed, but I still didn’t hear.
You found what you needed in someone new, and I started to hear.
Too little now.
Too late now.
It’s time to say good-bye now.
One last thing before I go.
You were my world, but I never told you.
I thought you were beautiful, but I never told you.
I wanted to be your world, but I never told you.
I’m new to this so I don’t really know what to say or how to get it out…but my story is really long so ill spare people..I just don’t know what to do. Each day seems to be getting worse and worse, and there’s nothing I can do about it. I barely have any family left, besides my little sister whom I love more than anything. Yet, she is getting taken away from me because my mom is selfish. I’ve thought of, and attempted suicide more than once. I’ve told my mother she doesn’t care, so I found this hoping it would help me. Because […]
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I don’t know how to open up to people. It leads to unremitting anger, directed at myself.
If you know how to open up to others, but don’t feel comfortable doing it, make yourself do it anyway. Get comfortable with it. Push through it.
Otherwise, you’ll end up like me.
You don’t want that.
On 09-22-10 my girlfriend off and on for 3  years had passed away  now I fequently cry my self  to sleep wondering why her. Why not me but everyone tels me god ha a different plan for her. I guess I can’t change how much I miss her and love her
.does anyone know how to get rid of some of these fellings so maybe I’ll stop blaming myself  and find some closure
the hurt thats inside me
i cant seem to forget
i try to find the key
but all i feel is regret
like why i do this
and why i run away
how can i get out of this aybss
and know what to say.
do i even mean what i let out
or want people to hear
i guess i just want to feel like my sainty is near
im living my story
and its getting harder everyday
nothing is now boring
im only now afraid
i dont know who to go to
i only want to cry
all i am trying to ask […]
i failed today. i picked up that knife and cut several times and opened several scars. its dissappointing. i was just so angry nd sad and frustrated that it overwhelmed me. i couldnt help myself and once i started doing it i couldnt stop. for a moment i was zoned out, completely lost to the world around me. i was just so focused onn cutting that i didnt bother to listen to the world i was in. i wanted to stop but i couldnt. afterwards i felt so much better though.
when i got the urge i tried to distract myself i tried using my […]
If anyone needs a friend to talk to please email me, please! I’ll reply to everyone, I want to help in anyway possible. I’ll be there for you, no matter what your story is.
i just wanted to say thank you to you guys you have helped me with soo much it. talking to you guys masde me feel like im not alone adn that other people feel the way i do too:). I’m trying to be happy i tried to do it awhile back but someone thing happended and i cracked</3. I’ve decieded not to tell my parents that i probally have reacurring deppresion becasue… well 1 i ont want them to think im screwed up and 2 im afariad of’ve what everyone else will think of me…. anyway THANK YOU GUYS SOO MUCH!!<3333 I PROBALLY WOULNT BE […]
i’m new, and i really need the support. because sometimes the feelings come back, although i’ll never act on these feelings, i’m dying on the inside.
One cut
Two cut
Three cut
Four
I can’t take it anymore
Five Cut
Six Cut
Seven cut
More
Watch the blood drip to the floor
This beautiful blood causes so much pain
This beautiful blood makes a beautiful stain
I just have to cut over and over again
It feels so good
Not like it should
I do it more than I ever thought I would