I don’t really know what I’m supposed to say here. Or at all really. I just kind of got to this website and…I dunno here I am. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. I don’t know what to do. Can anyone really tell me what the point is? We live for 60+ years just to die. That’s really it. We work our asses off and hurt and bleed and for what? We all end up the same in the end. Dead. Why even wake up tomorrow? It means nothing. I just wish I could…evaporate. Just disappear. Cease to exist. Not have to deal with […]
My parents will probably read this, this will be the only thing on my computer because I deleted all my history just not this site. I’m gonna leave my home in an hour with my bike (it’ll be dark by then) and I’m going to jump in front of a train. I really hope I don’t fail or someone saves me. I’m just scared of doing this, but I just got to. I really hope it doesn’t hurt. Mum, dad, little brother I’m gonna miss you all 🙁 it’s not your fault, but mine. I’m so sorry! This is my fav song, just so you […]
I have had a very rough life. I went into foster care at the age of 4. Grew up in group homes and became a runaway at the age of 12. Â Never knew what it was like to feel love from a parent and my siblings were separated from me. The feeling of isolation and just not belonging has always been with me.I became a cutter at 7 years old.I always felt suicidal and spent my early teen years in and out of hospitals for cutting. I finally attempted suicide November of 2003. I overdosed on Heroin and pain pills. The odd thing was I […]
My life has been slipping away for a few years now. My wife of 22 years has just left me and filed for divorce. My kids want little to do with me now. My once successful business is starting to fail. I have no friends anymore because most were driven away by my wife and I let it happen. My brothers and sisters don’t want anything to do with me because I ignored them for years because my wife hated them too. My health is detiorating and I just don’t have much will left for anything. I’m not sure I want to die but I […]
Exhausted and feeling like total hell.
Excuse me while I go puke until I die.
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My life is a failur ,i feel lost,i think of suicide
this will be my exit song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w6g4PouQeoc from 125 meters bridge , I will go there with my bike. First throw my bike then jum after it. I will wear my leather jacket i love so much. And also will listen music on my player during the fall. Last song will be from a favorite movie cool hand luke http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GHf7TD4qwjk. The reason is that im disappointed with myself I have dreams but I don’t move my finger to reach them, I hate that IM SO LAZY, used to go to fitness , read many books etc… Now I don’t even like to go out with my friends, soon they will leave […]
i hav selected a couple of methods one is the hellium hood method wich seems to be painless and sucsessfull and 2 is the bullet in the mouth do the best 2 aim for the brain stem so its just a matter of wich is easiest to carry out i own guns so that is a ready method but theres a party shop not far from were i live and they rent hellium tanks for a good price not that i care how much it costs i wont be needing money were im going i hope to sucssed in killing my self within the week […]
I am gay and I hate it. I am in my late 30s and so dislike the gay lifestyle. It appears for gay guys looks are everything and personality is not. I don’t have good looks and constantly rejected by guys because of my looks. I wish I was never gay as it been a curse than a blessing. The guys I have been interested in have played games with me and so sick of of it. I have asked God to change me but I realise the only big changes is if I die
So tired of being myself but myself is all i know
i want to die so desperately but am scared to leave people behind
but that’s all i’ve been doing lately-Â hurting what was mine
I hate to think of what my death would cause so i keep postponing it, hurting myself even more
i don’t know why i live this way, if you can call it living
wake up, hate myself, think, ‘what’s the point doing this anymore?’
Each day brings a deeper cut, stepping that bit closer to the edge
i’m getting to that stage where i don’t i can pretend i’m alright anymore
it hurts when people close to me don’t even realize what’s wrong – or […]
My husband has always suffered with depression, we’ve worked through most issues, but just recently he’s sunk further than ever and I don’t seem to be able to say or do anything to help. He’s talked about ending his life and having nothing to live for although we’ve been mostly happily married for 7 years (no kids, both our choices).
IÂ am there for him, I give him his space when he needs it, physical attention when he wants that (not often!) but what I’d like someone to tell me is…what does he really want from me?
ps I have asked him and he won’t talk about it […]
I don’t know what to do. My sanity is slipping away. Everything is swirling into darkness. I’m going nuts. I can’t do this anymore.
It isn’t optimal, and I will hurt a lot of people by doing it, but I need to die soon. Should I drive up to the train tracks and wait? Lay my neck across the tracks and hope that my body will run around like a chicken after my head is cut off? Or, god forbid, buy a gun? Such a convenient and reliable way to die.
Fuck. I should do this soon. Write a note to my family. Get all of my […]
I feel as if I’m being forced to live. I’ve had a desire to die for at least 5 years, which has gotten even deeper in the past 2 years. I’m so weak, I’m only willing to do what is the quickest and most harmless to kill myself, but those ways cost money, something I don’t have.
I would love to work, in fact, that’s what would keep me from the constant bleak and suicidal thoughts in my head and perhaps make me want to live because life would be working out in my favor for once, but whether it’s overpopulation or the economy that’s keeping […]
Just about every night they come over me, and they’re getting intense. What am I supposed to do?
Population: over 6 billion. Major western powers: USA. My country: Australia. My view of it: Slowly sinking down hill. Why? Mainly politics, but there’s some other factors that are found not only here, but everywhere. Ignorance is a main one. But not just any type of ignorance, it’s the type when people honestly think they know and understand everything. It pisses me off because I want to scream at them for being so ignorant and acting like they know everything, but I can’t bring myself to because I know they honestly think and feel like they do. I use to be the same. It comes […]
It’s the loss of control
No, it isn’t giving up your motor functions. You can move, you can talk and you can open and close your eyes; but open eyes see a hostile world that tolerates its own crumbling demise, but not yours, and closed eyes see the slanted razor you most certainly think will take the pain away. Move, if you wish, but wherever your legs carry you, your shame and guilt, your self condemnation will follow at your heels, eating away at your resolve and desire. Speak, my friend. Speak, but only what they want, because anything but is a pretension of higher knowledge […]
I have spent hours revising and rewriting… Not out of fear I feel too whinny… Rather my view changes… Like one moment I will feel “It’s all good, everything is fine” to “No one gives a sh*t about me”
However when I do bounce back and get ‘happy’ again, it doesn’t last long for I am awfully sensitive…
Example: During lunch I wanted to be with my friend(which I hold near and dear), she was in a classroom and the only way to get in was to do a secret knock. I happen to know this secret knock, so when I do it I expect to have […]
Feels sick when i know that people who i loved and did anything for them do not even care a shit about me. On every first week of the month you have all your friends and relatives around, but the moment you turn beggar, there is no one. Im not valued…my pocket is valued…Now i feel bad for myself and just want to walk away.
It’s hard growing up, forced to figure out this world alone.
Be wakened by screams… Screams from the only person that cared, that was always their….WHO WAS RAPED AND TAKEN.