has anyone else ever felt thht they want somone to talk to, a friend, that doesnt know everything about your messed up mind, or someone of the oppsite sex who doesnt think you are completly messed up, or talking to someone and when the question of “how are you?” comes up you dont have to mumble fine and quickly walk away to cry.?

these may seem like simple littel things but the thing is im not saying these are the reasons im unhappy and deppressed, im just saying its the littel things that remind me im not who i want to be and that  have alotof […]

My hands ache and my lids feel heavy
My face feels tired
And I haven’t even started my day
I’m not ready

Lately I’ve felt like crying
Now tears do not flow
It must be this heat
Beaming in from my window

A high velocity fan blows the hot air into the hall
The air conditioner needs maintenance
And I’m waiting for the temperature to fall

I don’t mind the spring and her allergies
The summer and her scraped knees
The Fall and a beckoning bite
And the winter the freezes hard during the night

But I’m a wolf who doesn’t mind an icy muzzle
To run free and […]

You say suicide is selfish , but your the one who caused me mental and physical pain. You say you want me to be happy… but then you call me a whore and a worthless piece of shit.. and you expect me to just forget about that. You say your not calling me names your just saying how it is, saying i’m an immature freshman, and that killing myself is ridiculous and i shouldn’t joke about it and you feel bad for me. But you think i’m joking , i’m not the immature one you are , i’m not saying i want to commit suicide […]

Life loses it’s worth to live, sometimes.
There are days where you wake up and the first thing that comes to mind is “Shit, God woke me up again!”

It’ll get better, they say.
It’ll get easier they claim.
Who the heck are they kidding?
They don’t understand.
They have yet to feel what it’s like to be in my shoes.
What’s the point of reaching out?
All they’re gonna do is judge me.
They’re gonna pretend to care,
And then they’ll leave just like the rest.

Does any of this seem familiar to you?
You know it’s true. You think it too.

I can’t promise you that […]

What has happened to this place?

It used to be filled with love and support, but now on almost every post there’s hate and rudeness going about.

We’ve got enough of that painful bullshit in the real world don’t we? Why add to the pain we all already have to bare?

Think before you speak. You may have the right to freedom of speech, but it doesn’t mean you have to abuse the given right.

I got told by many doctors and psychiatrists that I had depression around two/three years ago. Since then they have told me that “it will get better” or “you can be cured”. Lately, I haven’t noticed anything getting better at all. Actually, I’ve been feeling a lot worse than usual. A few weeks ago I had an appointment to see if I needed medication, they told me once again that “it will get better”. So, no medication. I’m not angry that I didn’t get it, I’m just sick of hearing the same thing over and over again.

My sister also has depression. But, unlike me, she […]

I am 17 years old and have been depressed for a few years now, suicidal for about a year at least… I keep reading things online about how depression is only going to get better, but in my case it keeps getting worse. My health continues to spiral downwards and make me feel like a complete invalid.

A few months ago I believe I posted another story here regarding the reasoning’s behind my depression and since then it has become much worse. The thought of suicide has become an idea that is able to make me feel at peace.

My whole life has been a battlefield between […]

Nobody listens to me. Guess I just come off as complaining. I’ve been posting so much as a sort of call for help. It didn’t work. Nobody cares. Bye.

Hey everyone, I’ve been a long time lurker, this is my first post. I don’t really know where else to go to get advice or support or anything like that.

Basically I’ve had depression for 3 years now (I’m 18, turning 19 in a few months), and I’ve just been suffering through it, I’ve been thinking about suicide every day but I’m too much of a coward to just do it. In all honesty, if I had a gun or something, I’d do it, but I’m just scared of the pain.

Anyways yeah so I’ve been talking about it with one of my friends and this girl […]

Is there any way I can block people on here? I’m getting sick of some peoples ignorance and antichrist attitudes namely sumer_rampage and lucy4. Ugh.

Everyone says that even if today is dark there is hope for tomorrow, then where is this hope? Where is it, tell me…

Save me
But I don’t trust you
Save me
But do I care?

Miles deep is my sea
Filled with hopeless confusion,
Invisible demons,
Dancing to their own wicked tune.

Or at least, that’s how it seems.
I could never begin to describe it to you
This hell, this pain,
Depression so unrelenting

I want nothing of this world,
It wants nothing of me
It’s only demand.. is truly so simple
To live. To love. To breathe

So why does the thought bring tears to my eyes?
Why does the sunrise make me weep?
You say its all worth it in the end
Just try your best to […]

i’m starting to wonder is there any point to life anymore? everyday i feel more and more numb. my body is always cold.  i just wanna get out of this world, there’s no reason for me to be here anymore, i’m WORTHLESS!

For the first time in a long time I feel content. I still sometimes think life is just suffering, but I feel better about it now. There is more hope now. Time heals I guess.  I started to forget about my scars on my wrists. I hope I could become less angry too now.

My next goal is to be happy. 🙂

I keep lying to myself saying everything is okay, but in reality I know it’s not. I cannot go through the day wondering if I will be better off dead. I keep loosing my friends over stupid stuff. I cannot trust a single soul. I keep breaking out even worse because I am so stressed out on life. I wish life could be over as simple as just pressing a button. But, it’s not. I really have no friends I can speak to about my life and why I am so depressed all the time. All I have is Tumblr. I just need someone […]

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Sumer the Moron

Sumer is back and I wish I could visit him and rip his arms and tongue out. Posting nudes on a site to help alleviate peoples problems caused by rape, abuse, and many other mishaps of life. That’s messed up. I just wonder, is it true that he’s insane? He’s smart, but also stupid. He’s a troll and an idiot. Even I’m not that far gone. I understand his mistrust of America, but attacking the weak? That’s just shitty man. We go here to cope, not to learn about washing machines and nudist colonies. (sad to say, I had “researched” […]

Why are you ignoring me? You seem so happy talking to others and won’t even glance my way anymore.

I feel sick just thinking about it. I hate my life, i hate that i might be losing you.

I feel like if you don’t talk to me i should die. You’re the only thing keeping me here.

Don’t know what to do anymore. Watching my world collapse around me more and more every day. This streak of bad luck is never going to end. I’ve already killed myself once. All this can end if I can have her love again. I can’t begin to list every thing that has happened within the past couple months, nothing good has happened. All I need is to have her by my side again, and the rest I can take care of. Unfortunately that’s not going to happen, what’s the point of living? Constant unhappiness isn’t a life I would like to live. Live, die…who cares?

Have you ever wanted to get out of your life? out of your skin?
Why do i have to suffer?

I just want a different life, i want to be happy
i want this pain to go away

I can’t even feel anything anymore, nothing makes me laugh or even smile. I am just a broken mirror, useless and worthless.

I feel cold, joyless, hopeless, helpless and broken
There is no one to talk to ,I’m all alone in this painful world
I just want one day of happiness, just one day in a different life

I want someone to guide me, to hold my hand and take […]