Hi I’m a 14 year old girl who suffers with anxiety, however I have yet to be diagnosed. I diagnosed myself because it’s really not that hard to know you have it when all you do is worry or have panic attacks. I would love to speak to my doctor but my mum just doesn’t understand anything about anxiety or depression so that’s why I keep it all in. The one thing that gets me worried is arguments with friends, I start to get paranoid that the other friends I have don’t like me either so I push them away until I have no one to blame but myself. Right now a whole bunch of people do not like me and are known to fight. I don’t want to be hit because that’s not how I want to see things happen. I just feel so shit all the time, everything I do always turns out wrong. My anxiety stops me from doing everything and I hate the fact I can’t do anything about it. I’m so scared to even speak to someone. I feel so useless now, no point doing anything if it never turns out right. I just generally just can’t do this, not fitting in anywhere. Laurens (“best mate”)got other mates now and I’m left in the middle and I hate it. I’m so depressed and I’ve got no one to tell. Mum just doesn’t understand anything and I obviously don’t have anxiety because I met someone who I didn’t know, but I was so so so scared to and she doesn’t realise it. All because I actually managed to meet someone now it means I don’t have anxiety anymore. I just would rather sit alone in school because I still feel like I can’t speak to anyone anymore. Everything I do or say I feel like I’m being judged. Im always so paranoid on how I look and what people are going to say or what people are saying. I hate my self, I hate that I don’t get along with anyone. I hate that I can’t do anything write anymore. What’s the point in trying. I really cannot do this anymore. I’m done. Sorry I wasted your time.