I can’t stop feeling like a freak…
Everyone around me, including family, constantly make a fun of me for who I am… to the point where I meltdown… and all they do is laugh at me…
I constantly get abused emotionally and physically… For no fucking reason… and I feel like nobody wants me around…
What the fuck is wrong with me…? I’m really nice to everyone… and they still treat me like shit… and now… I can’t stop feeling like a mistake…
I can’t stop thinking about suicide… I tried hanging myself with an extension cord once… and I can’t help feeling like I […]
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Abomination
I was just commenting and this idea crossed my mind. Ill try not to get too detailed.
Your life is the only proof of your consciousness; your ideas of right and wrong, your creativity and compassion, your love and fears.
Collectively this is what makes up our humanity, it’s what really matters in the end to us. Not our hate for each other or our wars, or our neglect for our own.
Collectively our consciousness is what has kept our speciese going all this time, otherwise we would be food for other animals. But we cling to life because we know it’s the right thing to […]
2 weeks ago I told my sister I don’t like boys and that I kind of like girls she said that it’s an abomination to like the same gender and it isn’t ‘natural’ and said she was against it and asked why would I even like girls and said if I were to die today I would most likely go to hell (she’s Christian) she said I need to go to church (I’m not that religious) she also said if I were to tell my dad that I like girls he would most likely stop talking to me he said he’d rather his daughter be […]
Darkness… thats all I see. It swirls around me growing and growing. It twist on itself like a dark flaming torrent. It gets bigger and bigger. All I can see is this abomination of a thing all around me. I am horrified. “what the hell is this!” I scream. Thats when I hear the laugh, and as soon as I hear it I realize something. The darkness is… my soul. Its whats left of what I used to be. It has rotted inside of me. It has grown like my rage, frustration, and deppression. Then I start to laugh with it. I laugh and laugh. My laugh […]
I’ve never posted here before… and aside from a few people I don’t talk about this, but I just don’t know if I can keep going on.
I feel miserable all the time. I feel like a pathetic loser. I spend so much of my time pretending to be fine that I don’t even know who I am anymore.
I wonder if I deserve to feel like this. is there something intrinsically bad about me? Am I a terrible person?
There’s nothing objectively wrong about my life. 2/3 of the world is worse off than me, so I wonder “what right do I have to feel like this?” […]
Im not sure if this is the right place or time for this but here we go:
For the past years ive been struggling with my sexuality. Its literally been eating me alive since I finally realized that I was different from most guys. It consistently brings me down in a sense that the people that i love and surround myself with truly do not love me, but the shell i expose. Ive been able to calm my nerves for what seems like forever but as i enter college ive been exposed to new struggles that i honestly cannot deal with anymore. I cannot come […]
Me, a 16 year old ******, atleast i think i am, always brushed off my stressors and depression-activators aside…. i never gave a 2nd look to why i am sad. I endured it. I always thought, if I thought about why i am so unhappy with my life, maybe I’ll take some sort of action towards fixing or mending this apparent hole in my life. Being Indian gives me a life full of culture… values… family. From day 1, I have been taught to be the perfect being my parents could wish for. I don’t want to be the perfect being they want me to […]