I can’t stop feeling like a freak…
Everyone around me, including family, constantly make a fun of me for who I am… to the point where I meltdown… and all they do is laugh at me…
I constantly get abused emotionally and physically… For no fucking reason… and I feel like nobody wants me around…
What the fuck is wrong with me…? I’m really nice to everyone… and they still treat me like shit… and now… I can’t stop feeling like a mistake…
I can’t stop thinking about suicide… I tried hanging myself with an extension cord once… and I can’t help feeling like I should try to do it again…
Because I feel like everyone wants me to just disappear forever…
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Your are NOT a mistake, everyone has a purpose on this planet, you just have not found yours yet. I have felt like you have a few times but i got over it in my own way. i had people to support me, friends who understood me. you just need to find that rock and hang onto it for dear life. if your family looks down at you just hang in there and show them up. show them that you are definitely worth it and that you can be greater than anyone else.
If you knew me you would change your mind on thinking everyone has a purpose.
then let me know you
That’s hard to do. How do you come to know that which is unknowable? At this point there isn’t much to know. A total, comprehensive failure.
there’s a lot to know, you just need to show people
It’s just that… every time I be myself… they all either laugh at me, or get pissed off with me. And even when I change who I am, they still dislike me. I’m really nice to them and everything. So why do they still treat me like a doormat?
if they laugh at you then forget them, they dont deserve to know the real you, you shouldnt change for anyone. why not one day just ask them why they treat you that way?
That’s hard to do. And because of my inability to have a life, there’s really nothing for me to show. All I could potentially show is my cipher-like ability to sit and absorb and rot. I couldn’t show anyone anything enough to have the few people in life stick around. I exist, nothing more…
well tell me a couple things about yourself?
I have asked them. And I got told that they didn’t like who I was when they found out the true me. My family are just pricks, so that’s why they make a fun of me. My family has no particular reason. That’s the part that gets me.
i know it hurts to know that family isnt being so nice to you but you have to move on and hope one day karma will come and bite them in the ass. i know karma will get them but in the mean time you should live your life as happy as can be and not let them affect you.
I’ll try. It never phased me at first, but then they just kept doing it and doing it, and that’s when it hurt me. But again, I’ll try and not let it get to me.
Thanks for listening. No one has ever listened before.
the first step is to always try, dont give up, one day theyll be asking you for help. and i always listen to people who need to vent, i dont mind. youre welcome
I don’t even know how to respond. There’s literally nothing to my life.
of course theres something in your life, there is always something even thought it may be small and unimportant