A new development has arisen, not only do I feel like the world has abandoned me but it seems my few friends I have left have too. None have spoken to me since I was kicked out of school, the sister I spoke of previously was recently kicked out because she didn’t want to do the work involved for year 12. The school however gave her more help then they ever offered me, I was shoved to the side and told to leave however they gave her 2 months to catch up, they gave her a tutor and said she only had to do 2 […]
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Why me? Why does it have to be me feeling this way? Why anyone? Can’t I have a piece of happiness instead of this poison eating the real me away. I’m rotting. I’m no longer myself. The only feelings I have are my self-inflicted wounds. The only feeling that brings me out of my numbness, that is. Why can’t I have the support I need? I never ask for anything but for someone to shake me and bring me out of the dark. Someone to tell me I’ll be okay. Someone to tell me I’ll make it, because I’m slowing fading away.. I’m not sure […]
I’ve never cut myself, never.
Though I’ve felt the urge to. Many times. I’ve almost gone through with it but I don’t know why I never can. It makes me feel sick but curious at the same time. Scared that maybe it would trigger more numbness or anger.
I don’t think I will, but, those who do, or have felt some kind of relief from it… what does it feel like really…?
Feeling sleepy,
PURPLEPAIN
just a few days ago i came very close to killing myself… ive been in some very dark places lately, my boyfriend broke up with me over text message and ive been very broken down and in a lot of pain lately…its very hard fro me and with my depression and suicide problems i had enough going on so one night i just lost it. my best frienf taylor was at my house to talk me out of it. ive had so much going on i just didnt see the point in living anymore…al i wanted to do was die, go to sleep and never […]