I can never do anything right in this world. Everything i touch i destroy. Everything i do isnt good enough for anybody. Why cant they see im trying my best to succeed in this world. Mom and brothers think i wont go to college and become someone. I just cant anymore im so stressed and fustrated with myself that i cant do anything right to make anybody proud of me…. im such a screw up sometimes i wish i wasnt born……
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Some days are really hard to get out of bed. Today I am going to work but it’s tough. It helps to get out of my way but my brain doesn’t fire all the time.Anybody have any experience with this?
This is my first time posting here and I’m not really sure whether I’m on the right track regarding what this site is about…
For the past 3 years I have had reoccurring suicidal thoughts and a couple of failed attempts. The idea of being free from this life is so inviting! In a way, I’m ashamed and I know that I don’t want to hurt my family. I’m trying to remove these thoughts from my head but the battle is tough. The only thing stopping me is knowing that I don’t want my younger siblings to ever suffer as I am.
My self esteem is pitiful. […]
can’t cut. made a promise. not that he’d find out. bars. captured. trapped. prison. burn my skin. bubbling. blistering. open. exclamations. under my breath. laughing. you asking. why. makes me better. the panic attacks. stop. fade. breathing. meditation. calming. focusing. on the pain. think it’s stupid. don’t want me to do it. again. scarred. regret. not now. not then.
self-mutilation. punishment. feeling. don’t have time for that shit. oblivious. addicting. no deep. well rehearsed. reason. i need it. simple fact. if i don’t have that. hold it all in. bottle it up. no outlet. nothing. no way to deal. handle. cope. heard that’s unhealthy. and my […]
Who understands what this feels like. Who knows the pain I’m in. Who lives with suicidal thoughts everyday of their life. I don’t want to die but I don’t want to be here. Does anybody understand? I am a 24 year old queer female who is lost and struggles with alcoholism/addiction issues. Is there anybody out there that could relate/talk to me?
Am I the only one who uses alcohol/pot to get through the day? I mean I know it’s not good in the long run, but in the moment it helps. I get to a point where I literally cannot bear the pain, it’s just too much, and I honestly feel that if I didn’t have to booze to wear me out and let me forget i would drive straight to the Golden Gate Bridge and jump. I feel like booze have saved my life a couple times this week, I just drink to the point where I don’t have the energy or motivation to hurt […]
Doesn’t it feel like we always have to prove something to somebody to get anywhere? When we work for others, our boss. When we work for ourselves, our clientele/fan base. And all of it is typically for one thing: money, the item through which we sustain a living.
Now being a rather introverted individual, I often find the task of socializing with anybody to be rather exhausting. So then how might I go about making plenty of money when I hate probably the most important aspect of earning it? Building rapport, networking, and selling on my particular skillset/product seems like a lot of unnecessary stress.
Take my […]
I’m so sick of being literally ignored by the people around me of these extreme feelings. Literally ignored. I say something, and they act as if nothing was said. I attempted suicide before, and I want to do it again. I do not know why I couldnt have just died the first time. As if anybody cares. If anybody cared I wouldn’t be in this situation right now. I have sought help through counseling but I have found it to not work for me. I find myself wanting to hang myself everyday. I want to so much. I know its my only hope but I […]
I posted about an hour ago a post named something like “maybe we already are living in the afterlife and got doomed to hell” and it got deleted. There was nothing in the content. Anybody know why it got deleted?
If there’s anybody in London (or anywhere in the UK) who wants to chat about anything, leave a comment.
I’m so tired of everything. I’m bullied almost everyday because I’m ugly or too skinny or because i never do anything right. I’m worthless, I’m not good enough for anybody, I never was and I never will be. None of my friends act like they even care, half of my family doesn’t act like they care either. Everything I do is wrong, no matter if I try my best it’s still not good enough. I’m just a waste of space here. I think this week may be my last week. I just can’t do this anymore.
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I have a big family, but my dad’s never been around so it’s always just been me and mum. Therefore, apart from my grandfather she has always been the one that I confide in. Bare in mind I am not the type of person that feels comfortable confiding in others and I tend to keep it all bottled up, occasionally taking things out on a sheet of A4 with black ink.
Whenever I do tell her things, I always make her promise not to tell anybody at least twice before I let it go because I know she’ll just spill it all to the […]
Did you know? In 900 years of time and space, I never met anybody who wasn’t important?
You count. You matter. You are unique and beautiful and brilliant. And if you forget it, I’ll remind you. How do I know? Its simple really. I’m never wrong.
It just turned my birthday and I know that tonight is the night. Is anybody in the Tampa Bay Area?
I feel like I’ll never emotionally connect with anybody. I have changed quite a bit in high school, since many of my friends moved away after elementary. I’ve become more cynical and depressive since then. People just don’t like a bitter personality. Also, admittedly, I’m lazy, but not couch potato lazy: I rarely watch TV because the news is depressing and reality TV is just a distraction from reality, so I either go on the computer or sleep. Many see this as a flaw and something that should be changed, but I think that this is who I am. I believe that life is pointless […]
I am a writer, I write poems, short stories, books, songs, etc. I wrote a poem a while back about suicide and self harm. Everybody says it is very beautiful but the content is bad (suicide anx self harm) anybody want to see it?? I will post it if you want to see it. 🙂
I am dying without her…. She is is going far far away from me …… i cant live without her …..i just want to die.. i tried to kill myself… but something was stopping and that her love…
Is there anybody who can give me some suggestion…
Im new to this site but im hoping it will help me not feel so alone. Is there anybody out there who has ever cut? I’ve had a history of cutting for a few years, luckily I quit for the past year…. but today ended that. Old feelings came back and I added new scars to my body. I apologize if this sounds depressing. But is there anybody who can give me advice on how to quit once and for all?
Hi, first time here. English is not my native tongue, so sorry for eventual grammar errors.
I’m just sick of everything. And this is not that old, teenage “everythnig sucks, I’m going to kill myself”. No. I’m goddamned 30 years old and everything sucks and If I could, I would kill myself. But I can’t, It’s just my body reflex to not kill myself even if I really wanted it to. And actually, I don’t want to kill myself but I really don’t see any other option for me. Either that or to feel like shit for decades to come.
So, I’m 30 years old, male, living […]