didnt sleep at all , all i thought about was how bad today was going to be , just so happy i dont have school.
OK most of you dont know me in  person , so my mum and dad divorced when i was 6 and then when i was 7 my mum made me my sister move away from my dad because my grandpa was sick and my mum wanted to be with him a few years after that i started being bullied in school because i was different i wore glasses , i wasnt fat i weighed 110 pounds (just all the other girls […]
I had a long day. It wasn’t horrible, just more of the same… waking up feeling horrible (a little extra bad today), dreading going to work… having to face negativity,  making mistakes, and feelings of  incompetence.  Biting my tongue. Trying to find a balance between politeness, diplomacy, and getting my needs met.
I was very late, under prepared, stressed, and embarrassed. No one else seemed to care too much… aside from the usual curiosity and confusion over my poor attitude. I hate looking inept but I am. I am sick, tired, fighting with my head every day… I am so tired. Went to class after work. I couldn’t focus. […]
I decided, why  let my last cut go unmemorialized? I am going to stop… After tonight.
I’m just gonna quit.
I was feeling particularly bad today, after my sister yelling at me about how I can’t do anything right while I was washing dishes. When I told her to leave me alone and get out of the kitchen, she started yelling about how i’m psycho and need to shut up.
So, I cut a little heart on my palm. I decided to just turn it into a tattoo.. At first I though I should sterilize the needle… But considering I usually either cut with a needle or piece […]
Thursday morning… This existence is painful, I cant take it anymore. I have no friends all of them have betrayed me, or fucked me over. My family offers no support with anything that I’ve ever done. Every girl I’ve ever met has used me, cheated on me, then got their new boyfriends to bash me. I was abused as a child by step father, and abandoned my real father. Every choice I’ve ever made has been wrong in someones eyes. My best friend overdosed on ice, and has been in a psych ward for the past 3 years, he doesn’t even know who I am. […]
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