I wanna be strong enough.
to fight.
I wanna be tough enough.
to survive.
but even fighters gotta give.
and even weaklings gotta live.
i want to breathe, but it’s too hard.
I want to feel, but i got no heart.
I sold it,
a long long time ago,
sold it to the devil,
along with my soul.
And God won’t help.
He hasn’t for a while.
but i still pray,
But I guess it’s not His style.
He doesn’t care for me,
he does’nt care at all,
I guess I’ve asked too much of Him,
Cause he won’t answer when I call.
So I’ll […]
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Blaze
Fighting
In the boxing ring,
Fists held to my face,
Shielding myself from the blows headed my way.
I try and try so hard
Ducking, dodging, skirting away,
From the opponents coming my way.
Jab, hook, and cross
Side kick, front kick,
Knockdown.
On my back, looking up,
Dazed, startled, confused.
Panting, trying to catch my breath,
I wonder if it’s even worth it.
5,4,3,2…
Back on my feet,
Fists held to my face once more.
Kick, kick, kick,
Uppercut, jab, cross
In a blaze of aggression,
The round ends.
Gasping, sweating, blood trickles down my face
I try so hard to win,
But I just can’t fight any more.
Lost inside idk where to go
trapped with anger, lost of all hope
no finger pointing, only I who is to blame
Im shackled and caged filled FULL of rage
If I wrap this sheet around my neck
I can put water to the blaze
Satan got ahold of me, BOY is he vicious
gave up on myself, dont even care about christmas
miracles dont happen, so I accept my fate
trapped in my own mind there is no escape
razors and knives pierce thru my heart
misery filled conscience, stand alone in the dark
nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
failure hurts, I just want to die
written in summer of 2011, but just bought my charcoal grill […]
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