I feel so pathetic for getting to the point where I have to write on forums about my problems because I’m so absolutely terrified to tell anyone close to me. I’ve isolated myself almost entirely since about last April/May and I’ve lost everyone important to me. There has not been a day to go by without me thinking about ending my life in some way in months and gosh, these past few days I feel like a ghost in my own body. I feel so numb and empty. I have no energy. I don’t want to talk to anyone. I can’t get my schoolwork done. […]
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Borderline Personality
Borderline (personality),friends, and to much will to end it all…
by agentCooper
written by agentCooper
Thats where im, emotionaly destroyed, tired,depressed, and in the state when i dont care about my horrible english…
My friends DONT know that i had the Borderline behavioral dissorder. (I had few older people who know it but thats different kind of relationship)
And i dont know if I can trust them, or how to tell it to them, or tell them what I feel or whats going on when iam depressed, or sad, or when i had suicidal toughts…and  I feel so lonely with feeling that none understand me…
(I had some self-harm things so im using antidepressants – after one week at center of crisis intervention, I want to […]
I am fourteen years old.
I have depression, I am bipolar, I have borderline personality.
I take medication for what doctors have diagnosed me with.
I do not let these diagnostics define me.
I’m a past self-harmer. I’ve attempted suicide 4 times in the past 2 years.
I was admitted into the hospital for destroying my home, and attempting to end my life.
I’ve attempted to OD on Tylenols, and Ibuprofen.
I didn’t take enough, I woke up in the morning, with a raw throat, unable to swallow and eat.
I just want you guys to know something. Those who are depressed, feel alone, helpless, just know, IT WILL GET BETTER.
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