I don’t want my life to depend on one person. But the truth is that my boyfriend broke up with me today and I just don’t know how I’m supposed to get through this. He told me he can’t deal with my depression and suicidal thoughts and it’s been like that basically since we started dating three year ago. I always knew we were never going to last, but he was what was keeping me going in this life. He tells me I need to get help and that I will be fine eventually, but I don’t believe that. I’ve been getting help for so […]
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I’m 36, I’ve dealt with suicidal thoughts for years. I’ve attempted it a couple of times. I’ve been sinking back into depression again and I want to die. I have a son, who is the only reason I haven’t ended my life yet. I worry about him. He’s a cutter. My boyfriend and I are having problems. I think he’s cheating on me and last night we had a physical altercation. I’m badly bruised and sore today. In 2 years, he’s never done that. I don’t know why he is now. I have no one to talk to. I’ve thought about taking pills and driving […]
What should I do if my friend is fantasizing about my boyfriend? She told me herself that she was fantasizing about my boyfriend…and my boyfriend said he has thought of the same way with her, but he says he loves me and he means it.
I don’t know what to do about it……it’s making me uncomfortable.
I don’t want to lose my friend or my boyfriend, but I’m afraid if I tell them I feel uncomfortable about it..I’ll make them upset. It makes me feel like I don’t deserve him…
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I don’t really know about relationships, since this is my first one…i don’t know how […]
Few weeks ago I stumbled on this website while researching on how to commit suicide and different ways to do so. I was in a very dark place in my life where I felt like suicide was the way to go.
I have felt emotionally depressed over a year ago when my boyfriend at the time and I broke up. At the time, I felt like the whole world was crashing down. I started to fail dramatically in school by not attending classes and not paying attention. I never had good relationship with my family because I was always a disappointment to them (no I didn’t just […]
Im 22 years old. I have a beautiful family that consists of my 3 children, 1 stepdaughter & my kid’s father/boyfriend of 8 years. sounds promising right? wrong. my troubles started at the age of 12. My father struggled heavily w/ a cocaine addiction that I didnt find out about until I was in the 6th grade. while he was a great, loving & reliable Dad, his addiction led him to become careless as it progressed. On June 2nd, the year following my 12th birthday, my father left me home alone with my “Godfather” who just so happens to be one of his drug buddies. […]
Hi, Im Angeline. Im 15 years old and Im in a relationship. My boyfriend is the same age and we’ve been together about a year and almost a month now. But the reason why Im typing this is because I’ve been depressed since July of this year. Our relationship was amazing in the beginning. He would always call me afterschool and we wpuld be on the phone till we got tired. We hung around each other alot, we held hands, etc. But then around July he started to push me away. I started to feel upset because it seemed like he didnt care about me […]
This is my first post to this site and I’m a little apprehensive. My soon to be fiancé and I broke up yesterday. I’ve been crying ever since. She and I met online. She was going to be the last person I talked to before I ended my lifei . SHe and her boyfriend had broken up and I wanted to make sure she was okay and make one last person happy before I ended my life. We started dating and I was planning on proposing. It all came to a stop yesterday. I’ve got bad PTSD as I am a volunteer law enforcement officer. […]
Is it weird that I feel like I don’t love my boyfriend….well, he’s my first boyfriend and….I’ve never really loved someone..
What are you supposed to feel when you’re in love…
We’ve been going out for two months now he says he loves everything about me and he accepts me for my depression and anxiety problems…
How does one love a companion?
How does one show love?
How does one love?
What is love…and can I love?
I’ve lost count of the years since he’s been gone, but today marks another. Today, October 25, 2014 is my soul mate’s 19 birthday. Every day I think of him and every time I do I ache to hear his voice again. I’ve been doing pretty good with my depression, even got a new boyfriend…but every time this day rolls around…my resolve breaks. I realize everything I’ve done and built is nothing and worthless. Nothing is the same without him and it never will be. I’ve never felt so miserable over someone before for so long…his loss has made me unable to care or love […]
Lately I’ve been trusting no one. My “best friend” said she didn’t want to be my friend anymore when she found out I was emo.I’ve known her since I was 6 and now I’m 12 almost 13. Also one of my guy friends from school turned his back on me and started calling my names. Past friends have left me also,my dad and step mom found out that I’ve cut myself, my sister was being nosy and heard what we were saying and went and told all her friends. Some of my friends know about it too from my sister. I just hope that my […]
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The last straw was pulled today. My boyfriend, who I love with my entire being and essence, left me because I am “weak” and “no one wants to be with a suicidal person”.
Now before you jump to the conclusion that I am a stupid dumb teenage ***** who doesn’t know what real pain is, let me tell you that yes, I do, in fact, know what real pain is. Real emotional pain. My pain stems from multiple branches – severe social anxiety, low self-esteem, self-hatred, countless bad experiences, and loneliness. These all intertwine with eachother, every item overwhelming […]
I don’t deserve to be happy, because I don’t have enough experience to connect with others in proper way, without neurotic symptoms. I have lived in my own world too long. I thought I have managed it because I have found friends on college, and had very strong relationship with my boyfriend for 6 years. But I was breaking the rules: I used to push my boundaries, I’ve used magical thinking when I didn’t have time or intelligence to do things right (like I’ll be funny girl, although I used to isolate myself in school, I’ll be good student although I was losing all my […]
I couldn’t keep up with a fast-paced job for even a week.
I can’t even find a good job at all.
I can’t make my boyfriend laugh the way I used to. I can’t tell him anything that will give me more than “yeah well” or “baby”. When he says he loves me, the only thing I can think is that he doesn’t really mean it. He doesn’t ask me how my day is or try to talk about things with me anymore. But God knows he has plenty to tell his friends on his computer game.
I came to New York a month and a half ago […]
So my ex boyfriend and me.have been talking. He always says he likes me and really wants to be with my but he pisses me off and I deny him. So yesterday I told him about my depression and he comforted me and even offered to bring a screwdriver to me because I couldnt get the screw out of my.pencil sharpner for the blade. He encouraged my cutting and now he got mad at me for asking him if he liked me so much why did he talk to other girls. He got pissed and now im.scared hell tell everyone at school about my depression […]
I only have one person in my life. Its my boyfriend. He spends most of his time at football and we live 500 miles away because of the college he’s going to. I haven’t seen him in a few months. My mom and dad used to abuse me so I was taken away and put into an orphanage. I was adopted when I was 8 years old. I spent 3 years in the orphanage. My mom and dad were taken to jail. My mom had a shorter sentence than my dad. She tries to contact me daily. I’ve tried to kill myself multiple times. I’m […]
My life has been so terrible i feel like giving up. Every single day is longer and harder to get through. My ex boyfriend left me with our baby and i feel so overwhelmed. While he’s out there sleeping with other girls, smoking weed, and racing his car, I’m here just taking care of our daughter. Everything is on me. I feel like just killing myself so he can suffer. I feel like just running away into the streets filled with the promise of intoxication and liberty. I can forget everything. I can just die in a peaceful drugged out overdose.
So, I’m 15 years old and I want to die. I only have one person in my life that genuinely cares about me. He’s the love of my life. My mom and dad are both in jail for possession of drugs. I have only seen my parents once. They were doing cocaine around me when I was only a few weeks old and then they were caught with it. I now live with my grandparents. They treat me decently but I’m probably not going to have them in my life much longer. They’re both in their 80’s. They don’t have the best health condition. After […]
Life is a depressing experience. Each day at college, I feel like I’m being forced against my will to conform to society. I’m only going to college because it’s either that, work for no reason, or suicide (such great choices). Seriously, there is no reason for me to work because I don’t want life. I’ve thought I might want a boyfriend, but I’ve never had one, and why bother? Relationships never last, and I’ve been told that I’m too sick to have one (so I guess I’m also unworthy of love). I don’t look forward to anything after college, or life in general. To be […]
Hi…
just like everybody else on this site.. I was looking for easy ways to kill myself.
Reading the stories and all the comments…makes me feel less alone when it comes to suicide. I had a few attempted suicides that didn’t work, clearly.
But that feeling of depression comes and goes and most times it feels like it just needs to end.
I’m in my 20?s and thought this would never happen to me. Just a day ago I was living on cloud 9, I had it all; an amazing boyfriend and devoting best friend. But my insecurity and past issues caught up with me.. now I have […]
For the past year everything has been going wrong. I keep falling down deeper and deeper, I don’t even know what the light of hope looks like anymore. My senior year was supposed to be my year to shine but it wasn’t, from start to end everything screwed up. Apart of me feels like god has really forgotten about me this time, of everything that has happened I have the need to look past him and wonder if I should even question his existence. In September, a month after school started I got into a school bus accident with an eighteen wheeler, I got seriously […]