ive wanted to die for many years, but now that im coming towards my demise I cant help wonder why I keep procrastinating the inevitable. I have court on the 16th for a DUI which has already turned my unlivable life into a complete hell. It started by losing my brother to suicide 4 years ago (I was suicidal way before that, about 12 year). then IÂ managed to move on and live a somewhat decent life until I met “her”. the love of my life that I am still in love with 6 months after we split and she moved away. I never wanted kids […]
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Brand New Car
Wrecked my brand new car and the only friend I had at work is leaving. Mom is still in the nursing home and she’s never getting out alive. It’s so hard to find a purpose when you never get good news. My first thought when I wake up in the morning is ‘I can’t believe I have to face another day’.
Mary Richardson was in the news again today – well actually it was her husband. Reading about her really makes me think of suicide as a way out. Problem is I don’t have the guts to kill myself in such a brutal way.
I’m soo depressed, sick & tired of being sick & tired!! Why does life have to be so damn hard? Why can’t I ever be happy? Why do the people you care for hurt you the most? I just want to end it all!! The HELL with life!! What I wake up, get dressed, go to work, kiss my fiancé goodbye & head out. But what do you do when the person you swore was your soulmate betrays your trust & violats your boundaries? I’m in love with a woman whom I grew up with, even as kids we were always together. Now 16yrs later […]