I am the world to my parents. Everything they do, they claim to do it for me. Maybe it’s an Asian thing. Maybe it’s just a devoted parents thing. I don’t know. I’ve been wanting them to come to terms with the fact that I want to kill myself since I first decided to tell them in April. I hoped that with enough communication, they would understand the amount of suffering I’ve been enduring. Of course, no, they think I need a change of scenery, a change in lifestyle, pretty much a change in everything. Think that that would solve my problems. No. They even […]
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I’m at school with my iPad and I feel obliged to post something.
Ive sort of been depressed all week now I realize, it’s just been one of those weeks. I’m not diagnosed with being bipolar, but it bloody feels like it. I hate how I only get to spend about an hour each day with my best friend, it’s not enough. I feel lonely as fuck.
The realization has sort of come over that the school I go to really sucks balls. Every second girl is a slit. The teachers are shit with like two exceptions I’ve only been taught by once each. The people here […]
Today I found out about one more person I know who has cancer. Seems like there has been so many and so many deaths lately and I guess my point in all that is that I would trade them in a heart beat. It makes no sense to me why someone like me who could give a shit if I am on this crap planet another second lives and someone else who wants to live, gets cancer or some other illness. I am 39 years old and question everything I have ever done in my life. Question who I am, question it all. I am […]