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College Degree

Hoping for a peaceful end with CO

by enoughofthiscrap 7/21/2013

written by enoughofthiscrap

I’m over 50, unemployed and very likely to remain so despite a good college degree and lots of experience. Â In November, my unemployment runs out so I shall be reduced to 400 euros a month – nobody can live on that.

My plan is to rent a chalet on a camping site – in October when it’s not too warm – and burn two hibachi barbecues inside. Â I was planning to do it in my camper, but I want to leave that to my sister and she wouldn’t want it if I’d died in it. Â Plus, I can leave the cat there as it is her […]

7/21/2013 2 comments

Was it all a lie?

by Fallen_Hearts_Hopes_Lost 9/24/2012

written by Fallen_Hearts_Hopes_Lost

I have attended four highschools, all completely different. With completely new teachers, new classes, and new classmates. With each school year I’ve been that girl who rarely spoke, the girl who just went to school then went back home.I had no life, because I never opened up and allowed people to get close to me.
Every new school year my mother says I’ll find some new friends who won’t stab me in the back, but every time I’m invited to hang out, my mother says no. She claims it’s because she doesn’t know these people, and I think ‘how will you ever know them if […]

9/24/2012 8 comments

Nothing left to live for… once chance at giving them a nice life…

by codeslinger 9/3/2012

written by codeslinger

I have been addicted to drugs for half of my 30 years on this earth…. I thought if I got married andÂ hadÂ someÂ childrenÂ that it would fill the hole inÂ myÂ heart. Â I was able to stop using for a little while, but the desire to get high never goes away. I started using again and eventually my wife took my kids and filled a PFA to keep me away from them. I have never hurt her or the kids, but now I am looked at like a wife-beat. I despise those people who hit women, andÂ that’sÂ what hurts the most…

I do not want my kids to look atÂ theirÂ junkie dad […]

9/3/2012 2 comments

World of Filth

by Veihsaihgkjdsal 4/29/2012

written by Veihsaihgkjdsal

Hey kids, hereâ€™s some advice: if you feel like killing
yourself, do it. Do it as soon as you can, because life and society will take
everything from you as you get older. It will even take your desire to kill
yourself. That may sound like a good thing, but it isnâ€™t. You will lose the
will to kill yourself, but not the root emotions that made you consider suicide
in the first place. You will still feel like shit, but will lack the passion
and ambition to actually solve it with suicide.

You may see signs of physical weakness in the adults around
you, but […]

4/29/2012 7 comments

Pound, Pound, Pound…The Drum

by BlueNephilim 1/15/2012

written by BlueNephilim

I feel the darkness closing in…but I
like it! I find comfort in things others
fear. Have I only now realized I’m the
square peg trying to fit into that
round hole? I’ve participated in
“normal life”, but I always feel
out of place. This is something that
has been with me since I can
remember (I’ll be 31 on wed.) Always
nipping at my heals, but not taking a
full bite…until recently. I see a dark
room, lit only with the pale light of the
TV. Me laying on the couch in cold
silence. No one around…just me with
my ever racing thoughts…blood,
flesh […]

1/15/2012 0 comment

The List

by emma 6/16/2009

written by emma

The facts:

I have struggled with depression my whole life
When I was ten I had my first suicidal thought
When I was twelve I tried to cut my wrists
When I was thirteen I tried to hang myself
My mom left us for another man when I was five years old
My dad was an abusive alcoholic
My dad was married four times
I have always been responsible
I always did well in school
IÂ got a scholarship to college
I got a college degree
I was married for 11 years
I moved a lot
I couldn’t seem to make any new friends
I had an affair
IÂ got a successful job in corporate america
I was extremely lonely
I made a lot of […]

6/16/2009 5 comments