I know I should be thinking about ending my life but all i do is fight right now… my arms are weak from the pain… does it hurt to dream again? maybe she and i could be happy in our misery…
will be writing again soon… maybe it will ease some pressure and i can put some thoughts in order…
2:17am 12/30/12
unhappy thoughts… wanting to withdraw from college already… all alone for new years…
school is going to start, it’s going to be a sudden change of pace… reading, always reading… so many people… memorizing stuff… I may not have to post anymore… it’s interesting to have gone through this in this way… i’ll be back but who am I?
I’m sore from trying, I’d rather be sore from doing… my head hurts on and off… 2 more days until a new year… will I be able to do it? will I finally make it? I tell myself I’m strong enough… I do… I believe I’m ready to do this… Time is crawling…still I wonder, am I worth making this memorable again?
Did […]
It’s been a rough couple of days… I’m sorry for all who are suffering I fight with this pressure in my head even as I’m trying to put it all behind me… I did manage to find some help… I’m glad i held on long enough… I will be more careful to not drain myself providing for another who is incapable of providing in return… It’s a rough lesson to learn when its family member or a loved one… I need time away from them and now that I’ve had some help I’ll be okay…
9:43pm
Sitting here remaining positive that I won’t allow that to happen […]
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