for a very very long time i have felt distanced from my family from people from life. i mean eight grade was the darkest time of my life… i faked my way out of a suicide/depression test so i could get out of therapy convinced i didnt have a problem i would never do anything its all words and words dont mean anything. but words mean alot and words can hurt a lot. for as long as i cna remember i have been pushed away by my parents. they have no love for me. i have two younger sisters who absorb all their attention and […]
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Counting Down The Days
The day I’ve been waiting for is almost here. My method of release is almost on my doorstep and the pain and depression will disappear! ECT didn’t work, group sessions didn’t work. My previous 2 suicide attempts didn’t work. Both my hospitalizations didn’t work. The time is now. I’m so happy and nervous at the same time because I know for certain this time, I’m surely going to die.