When I wake up, I feel darkness surrounding me
When I’m at school, I feel darkness surrounding me
When I’m home, I feel darkness surrounding me
When I’m out with people, I feel darkness surrounding me
At my happiest moments, darkness posses me
Everywhere I go this burden will always be with me til my final day
The darkness doesn’t let the sun rise
Day after day, all I see is pain, misery, sadness, and negativity
Look,
You should be thankful, you got a chance to live. And everyone must know, nobody ever said that life is easy. I know the feeling of pain and not being loved, or teased by the one you love, problems at home or just a feeling you get out of the blue, that really hurts, that you just want to be in a dark room, nodody knowing where you’re at, no food, or social connection, or lights.. just slowly languishing. To be honest, I’ve thought about suicide a lot. And yes, I’ve hurted myself, with just scratches on my hand, I was just so angry, and […]
Long term chronic pain is difficult to live with. I’m 21 and I have been in and out of hospitals (medical and psychiatric) for three years. All three I was in university and should have been able to experience the best side of that life. Instead I was stuck inside. Now my doctors tell me I will have to live with it for the rest of my life. I have to see psychiatrists because I have already had two failed attempts. They say I use sleep as a coping mechanism but it is a lot sweeter in the unconscious than it is to wake up […]
I am Envious of the River
The River is free
I am trapped
The River knows it purpose
I am lost
The River is full of Life
I am Dead Inside
The River is eternal
I am Mortal
The River wants Nothing
I cant be satisfied
The River Feels Nothing
I feel only Pain
The River See’s Nothing
I see only sadness
I wonder if the River is envious of me
I wrote this back in my very dark days, I just i would share it, I am fighting my depression everyday and am happy again.
It can seem pretty bleak sometimes, But remember to win you have to fight.
So never Give up SP brothers and sisters
I said: “Everyone has problems.”
You said: “You don’t. Your life is perfect.”
I didn’t argue.
But I did come on here right after you left and started writing this whilst inside me everything’s all jumbled up and messy and broken.
We all have our problems, okay. I might not have a horrible home life like you. I might not have been through the same things as you. But let me promise you: I have plenty of problems.
Yes, I have what looks like the perfect life- loving family, nice house, plenty of money etc. And I do actually have all of those things. My parents raised me perfectly and I […]
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