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Deaf Ears

Emotions

by LostandAloneGirl 11/27/2012

written by LostandAloneGirl

Emotions swirling

Happiness, anger, sadness

Which do i feel?

I feel fake

Unloved, unwanted

I am weak

Just a side character

I seek to be noticed

and held

But no one can see me

Amd i transparent? Invisible?

Doesn`t anybody care?

I cry silent tears

and everything i say falls on deaf ears

I am a souless doll

I have no free will

A doll`s emotions are painted on

Artificial

No one knows what the doll wanted

For the doll doesn`t speak for itself

I have to be a Fake person

to be seen

I have to be perfect

not me

I have to live up to

Expectations

not my limits

Everyday my will and emotions leak

From a cut in my being

A cut so deep that not even stitches

Could keep infection out

I […]

11/27/2012 2 comments

I’ve been married now for almost 5 years. I live in a state without my immediate family. I have tried to make friends, but it always seems like I end up with the selffish ones. I Never thought moving to a new state would make it so hard to find a place where I can fit in. I try to make friends so I can have someone to hangout with or talk to when I need a friend. It is so hard to use my out of state family, because I don’t want them to worry about me if something is hurting me.

Lately, I […]

9/3/2012 10 comments

safe

by greylady 7/31/2012

written by greylady

I wish I could run away to something safe. This world is seeming so full of danger, so full of loss and I’m scared. My partner of many years keeps going back to the same behaviors that utterly utterly break my heart. He cannot see me at all, he just sees an enemy, someone trying to hurt him. I can’t imagine a worst torture for myself than this, and the way things have been. He snaps out of it sometimes and helps me build trust with him and I act in the ways he says he wants me to, but he still gets angry and […]

7/31/2012 1 comment

The Harbinger

by Nolentwohundred 7/10/2012

written by Nolentwohundred

My fair maiden lies shackled and woe. Her dress torn and soiled, tells of blasphemy and misfortune. Her soul tormented by God and government. Does this course not beckon me to proceed encased in armor of Mendez? Should my thoughts not intertwine with war? If my cries fall on deaf ears, will I cry no more? It is the Harbinger they seek. His lowered brow swells to the rigid horns of reason. His direction echoes of thunder as stride distends. He is shielded by maxim and plague of knowledge. The sharp steel of angst-ridden compassion, urges to plunge deep […]

7/10/2012 2 comments

I wont make it

by Roaming_Soul 1/11/2012

written by Roaming_Soul

I went back to school today, it was the worst couple of hours ever! Was hoping for a fresh start but kept getting dirty looks from people. I feel insecure as it is. I can’t stand the way I am. I hate myself I don’t need someone else to tell me what a fuck up I am. Thought I would have a fresh start with people I considered friends instead I was greeted with a “fuck you!” and someone else shaking their head at me. The thought that kept running through my mind was ‘what am I doing here? Why didn’t I just end it […]

1/11/2012 4 comments

Deaf Ears

Emotions

Lonely and Lost

safe

The Harbinger

I wont make it