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Depressed Mother

Deterioration

by AshCoveredAngel 11/28/2018

written by AshCoveredAngel

I’ve had left side flank pain on and off for four years now.

I finally got to see a GI specialist.

The specialist thinks my mental illness has caused my physical illness and pain for the past four years. That I have IBS and there’s nothing she can really do for me, and that psychiatric medication is probably my solution.

Unfortunately medication hasn’t been safe for me and no other treatments have helped me either.

I have already given mental illness the ability to make friends.

I have already given my mental illness educational opportunities.

I have given it my ability to support myself financially.

I have given […]

11/28/2018 2 comments

Just Waiting

by AshCoveredAngel 9/29/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

No longer pregnant so I have my method picked out. It’s a double method because suicide has a 75% failure rate or so. Basically the only way to be successful is overkill. Both have a high failure rate but in combination and how I’m going to carry them out I’m pretty confident in the ability to complete.

I just got to wait until there’s not a doubt in my mind. Doubt will save ya.

9/29/2016 3 comments

Only 5 or So

by AshCoveredAngel 4/29/2016

written by AshCoveredAngel

I’ve decided that once I’m not pregnant anymore I’m going to go through with it. My children can go live with their fathers. My son won’t have the things my daughter has to know I love him but it’s whatever. I can’t do this anymore. 16 years of this is enough. 3/4 a life is enough. It’s never going to get better and I’m ready to go. I have a playlist made and I’ll put a list of things like bearers, honorary bearers, flowers, body plans ect together.

I can also get started on the letters for people.

As you can see in 16 years […]

4/29/2016 3 comments

I dont know what to do anymore.

by Ashley 7/29/2012

written by Ashley

I want to die. I realize that this is a problem. But I dont know how to deal with it. I have cut myself in the past, along with starving myself. I dont know how to go on. I really dont. I do know that I cant give up just yet.

My life really to the average eye, isnt at all bad. But if someone would look deeper, they would realize that I live with a severely depressed mother, and an uptight dad that expects me to make miracles all the time. My mom, is always coming to me for said “help”. And its to much. […]

7/29/2012 4 comments