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Desert

I hung myself this morning

by MaxBlaise 7/22/2013

written by MaxBlaise

For a long time now I’ve been subconsciously planning my suicide. My main reason for this is this ever growing sensation of “weltschmerz” – feeling the pain of the world and the uselessness of existence and living.
I have a good job that pays well. I am married to a woman that loves me, I have two beautiful and adorable children and still these aren’t good enough reasons for me to keep on living.

For as long that I can remember, I’ve been trying to live life, but never really knowing how. On the outside I’m am successful, but on the inside there is only this […]

7/22/2013 4 comments

A night of passion with a girl named Lucy

by Ford 5/9/2013

written by Ford

**Disclaimer: don’t do drugs mmkay. It is not my responsibility if you do, be safe, be careful, be responsible. Don’t do stupid shit.**

Guys I have been there. I want to show you what it is like but I can’t, I can only describe it. It was so intense, some might have been afraid in my situation, I thought even the bad parts made it better.

I took presumingly 140 microgrammes of LSD (well that is what the guy who sold it to me said). I took it at home by myself to explore my mind (not recommended, especially if it is your first experience with psychedelics. […]

5/9/2013 10 comments

A desert walk

by Lesswill 1/3/2013

written by Lesswill

The few men i see along this journey are total strangers..i dont know any animated object apart from my enslaved shadow..i know that he is somehow tired of my bored outlook on life..but he is fated to be with me no matter what.

1/3/2013 2 comments

Nothing Left to Break

by Nephilim_Sancti 9/30/2012

written by Nephilim_Sancti

My world is sinking in

Ankle-deep

And skin, too thin.

Trapped in solitude,

Surrounded by multitudes,

Misunderstood

Left unprotected,

Left too corrected.

Caught in a dream world,

Not here, not there.

Nowhere.

Bullet in my head,

Swinging from a tree,

Buried six feet under,

Why wonâ€™t she die?

Ripped and broken,

Torn a sunder,

With a heart like hers,

Itâ€™s a wonder.

Let her wander,

In the desert,

Through the mud,

There is no water,

Only sun..

Breaking chains,

Breaking free,

Still feel bound,

To every day.

Breaking hearts,

Broken mind,

Breaking promises,

Need to unwind.

Breaking faces with fists of iron,

And suffering the consequences

From whence they burn.

Time to sleep,

Time to die,

Itâ€™s better than this,

Unable to cry.

Foundering in my thoughts,

Left to think,

Itâ€™s a crime,

To plot to murder yourself

For less than the dime

You found in your wallet,

Hidden in […]

9/30/2012 12 comments

Piece by piece by piece.

by Just another sad, sad girl. 9/11/2012

written by Just another sad, sad girl.

“It’s dying, It’s dying!” They all cry,
Your heart got far too close to mine,
And now it’s ripping, breaking inside,
My body breathes a sigh of relief as it’s time.

I can hear it in the wind, I can feel it on my skin,
“Just one more time, you’ll feel much better ” I can’t let these voices in.
“Please don’t desert us, we were always there for you,
On those lonely nights when you were lost and didn’t know who to turn to.
Self harm? No harm! What harm can it do? They take me away cause they know it hurts you.”
Now she’s […]

9/11/2012 3 comments

My little girl…

by stephanerd 6/28/2012

written by stephanerd

I’m 23, and I’m pregnant. I’m miserable. I’m 33 weeks and 5 days, and I want it to be over. I don’t want to kill myself, I just really want to hurt myself. I want to put my fist through a wall or window. I want physical pain to outweigh the emotional. I haven’t been able to work for 3 months and won’t be able to for another two, at least. My husband, the baby’s dad, has a shit job, like $300 every two weeks. He sleeps all the time and smokes too much weed. He doesn’t listen to me. We have no money. We’re […]

6/28/2012 7 comments

The Frozen Land

by Corkthulu 6/28/2012

written by Corkthulu

I crave the touch of friendly hands.

My bitter soul is searching for

The warmth of love in frozen lands.

The wind bites though me as I search

The tundra of this lonely life.

I crave the touch of friendly hands.

I huddle to the fire and think

No sun-scorched desert could replace

The warmth of love in frozen lands.

Like the robin with fractured eggs,

Or the hound who howls for his man,

I crave the touch of friendly hands.

Frost cracks open my naked face.

I wish a long embrace would give

The warmth of love in frozen lands.

There is nothing […]

6/28/2012 0 comment

A Story Called: War

by just listen 5/4/2012

written by just listen

It hurt so much inside. All I could feel was the pain and sadness. This was like a dark creature at the bottom of the sea. It feels no pain, has no mercy and keeps no love in its dead heart, only hate. It was overwhelming and I couldnâ€™t see that bright light therapist say is up ahead. There was only darkness. That is what only a portion of my depression felt like. I actually named my depression War. My soul hates how it makes me feel hollow afterward. I feel deprived of love and life. Hollow comes on like a rainstorm. Sometimes you can […]

5/4/2012 4 comments

My struggle with depression

by suzyy 3/25/2012

written by suzyy

This is the first time I am putting this in writing much less saying it to anyone. I have been suicidal ever since I can remember. I first tried to commit suicide when I was in grade 5, I think that would make me 11. I had heard in news about a guy who wanted to commit suicide by over-dosing but ended up killing hisÂ nieceÂ and nephew when they consumed the desert he had made for himself with plenty of sleeping pills. I was young then so I didn’t know just how much “plenty” meant. I asked my maid-servant (I am from Asia and it’s normal […]

3/25/2012 0 comment