I’m just done. I fucked up everything, I’m just done with everything
I’m tired I wish I sleep forever. I hate myself. 🙁 I just don’t feel right anymore , everything is getting more worse. Growning up sucks. I’m sick of this shit , I’ve lost the ability to feel anymore , I don’t know how to feel. I just feel like dying 🙁 !!!!!
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Fuck all of this… even with you sitting right next to me, suicide is still my first thought… why am I still here; I’m so done with this all…
I’m sure some people are tempted to view this site as a bunch of whiners talking about suicide but never doing anything. Or as my own idiot therapist said: “Why talk about it? If you’re going to do it, then do it.”
But the truth is that many SP users have actually gone ahead and done it. They post here as a last stop before the unknown, and then they cross over. So no, we’re not just a bunch of lookie-lous.
I was wondering if anyone had been keeping a list of confirmed, or very likely, suicides of SP users. Maybe it would be nice to have […]
Hello. I may seem like your average 13 almost 14 year old. But i’m not. I’m so disgusting. I have scars all over my body. I’ve been bullied for almost 9 years. People hate me, even though I’ve done nothing to them. I’ve been hospitalized 4 times. I’ve had 31 suicide attempts. I’m just done. I can’t do this anymore. I know eventually I’m going to end my life. I just know it.
i’ve decided that i’m done; i’m done with everything, and i’m ending it. goodbye
Here I am. 1 year later. This post is the continuation of this one : http://suicideproject.org/2014/01/times-running/
Tomorrow, I’m supposed to decide if I can possibly ever be happy or not. If I can, I can’t think about suicide ever again. If I can’t be happy, I start planning my exit.
I did put a lot of efforts in the last year, to feel better. I took a lot of risks and changed a lot of things. I do feel better than I did last year, but sometimes, I still want to die.
I’ve been through some serious heartbreaks and I’m still in a major depression. Taking pills. Seeing […]
Its all pointless? I have no one anymore i dont even know why im posting on here either my lifes pointless and im done with it all 🙁 im gonna end it now forget everyone just do what i want anyway :/ im done with life and im sick of people always trying to keep me here so they feel better and i dont care anymore all my friends have gone and abandoned me too my girlfriend got taken to a psychiatric center and she probably wont get out so here i am alone with all the painkillers i could find and im DONE goodbye […]
As I sit here writing this all I can think about is the medication I want to overdose on. I’m a very easy person to talk to, I’ve been taken advantage of and at this point I’m really ready to be done. Life as I know it could quickly end. I’m 16 and have been to hell. My parents caught me my first attempt and thus putting me in therapy because they said I had lost it. Â How can I make it stop
I have read some of these posts and I identify with you all and I truly feel for you all. Many of these posts mention regretful and hurtful actions committed in the past. But what if you haven’t done any of these things and still continue to suffer daily? What if you are the guy who got straight A’s? What if you are the guy who is always loyal and decent to everyone? What if you have never done any drugs? What if are 31 years old and have never had one real friend? What if you live a completely healthy lifestyle, but continue to […]
I just feel so done lately, done with everything and everyone.I get in my car to drive somewhere and I just want to take my hands off the wheel. The thought of growing up absolutely terrifies me. I feel so depressed, and I want to go to the doctor, really I do but she told my parents last time and I would literally quit if they found out. I’m just such a private person, I don’t like big groups or other people. I absolutely detest with a fiery passion being told what to do or being mocked for being “grumpy”. I’m overweight, so overweight and […]
I quit. I can’t save people, I can’t talk to people, I can’t love people right, I can’t do it. I’m done.
Fuck everything. Fuck the images replaying in my head. Fuck my fucked up choices.
And no matter how much love and care you give to people they’re going to chew you up and shit you out. They never take you serious enough. There’s a quote I read….”A lot of you cared, just not enough.”
I’m going to start cutting everyone off now. It saves me the pain later. And this God I’m supposed to believe in knows I’m tired of it. Done being strong for everyone […]
I have had enough. I am sick of picking up the mess of my son – time after time after time.. getting him out of debt, saving him and he is 26. I have just picked him up out of a drug induced psychotic episode and now he is throwing tantrums about not being allowed to smoke weed…… I have had enough. I want to live my life quietly and all the time he continues to snipe…….. tomorrow i will buy the razor.. I never thought I would but he has destroyed any hope of a life for me. I have none………….. and I actually do […]
…then that’s what they’ll see.
I’ll paint pretty pictures on the walls around me
I’ll always be happy and make it look real.
It’s amazing how well you can hide how you feel.
I wrote that about 27 years ago, and nothing has changed. I still paint on my smile every day before walking out the door. I’ve been dealing with depression since I was 10 years old (and perhaps before that as I’m fairly certain I was sexually abused and more than certain I was physically and mentall abused)…never understanding why I feel the way I do, or how everyone else always seems like they’re […]
What would you do to change your life?
What would you sacrifice?
A brother, a lover, a friend, or a mother?
What would you give to save your life?
What would you change to save your life?
What would you say at the end of time?
Another, no other, to cover or reveal?
This was to change my life.
I’m looking out on the sea
The sea of destiny
And wherever the wind takes me
I’ll be dancing free
So now I’m done
My life goes on
Will it be the same?
Will I miss you?
And is this true?
Can my life change?
I can’t really stand to be here for more than a few moments, but I am here to leave an update comparing today to this day last year.
One year ago today I was ready to die. Today is my 29th birthday, and this time last year I was trying to hang myself from a shower stall or from a tree in a campground. It didn’t work out. At 7am the next morning I was dealing with campground staff wondering why my car was in a ditch; the rear hatch window was smashed, and I needed a tow truck to pull out my car. It took a […]
i ve finally resolved that staying alive has to be done in a better way and hiding and living under peoples shado isnt any way to live
I don’t even know how many suicide attempts i’ve had, it only makes things worse when you don’t succeed.
People want to know why, you get sent to specialists and quite frankly, they’re a load of horse sh*t, putting faith in these people isn’t something i feel comfortable with, they don’t want to give you medication and when they do, they give you the wrong one, or they neglect to tell you that it’s addictive.
Right now i’ve got some anti anxiety medication, it’s started to kick in but the only thing it has done is make me want to clean, then  get stressed about mess, i’m […]
I’ve been on here since 2011, but recently made this account after not being on here for 5 months, fresh start 🙂
I come back and Bam! I don’t get this format AT ALL. please help
My names Logan. I’m a sophmore in high school and i just dont want to live anymore. I cant take life anymore. A few months ago is when it started when I got my license and my friend wrecked my car. He was my drug dealer, and don’t take me wrong, i’m no “druggie”, i just occasionally smoked marijuana to help with all the stress school gives me. He ran and fled the scene and found out he didn’t have a license. All I hear at school is how big of a fuck up i am for it, and people who just harass me for […]
I have lost a wife, a son, a mother and most recently a soul mate. I’ve had severe depression for 6 years, for the last month I have done nothing but plan my exit.
I’ve had two attempts in the past, in 2009 I couldn’t step off a long drop hanging I had well researched and constructed, I just wasn’t ready to do it then. About 2 weeks ago I took an overdose of paracetamol which was unplanned and failed due to consuming a large amount of alcohol in a short space of time and vomiting undigested pills.
I have committed to ending my life but have […]