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poison i choke on

by The_red_fairytale
written by The_red_fairytale

Your heart so hard and cold
The tears I hold as you all laugh at me.
Others not moving an inch, standing where they may
Your words so filled with silly hate.
Your hate is jealousy in the purest form.
I smile and pretend that the words don’t cut like knives.
That I can’t hear the little whispers in the halls
I don’t understand what I did.

I just want it to end, I want it to end here and now
Your hate is your poison and you choking on it.
Every breath you take, hate
Every move you make, hate
Every look you give, and […]

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My Anchor

by justaspeck
written by justaspeck

It’s too quiet in here.

I can hear myself cry, and hiss out words that usually come as mumbles.

It was once a place of serenity.

It was once the place of my joy,

but now I find it only to contain an inescapable hell.

It’s a place filled with shadows,

and a place filled with comfort.

My temple and my asylum,

my punishment and my reward.

This place smells of candles overcome with the misuse of lysol in a can.

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I’m such a coward!

by SDHBLS
written by SDHBLS

I thought I could end it with ease. All I had to do was step off Instead I just sat there frozen. How come I couldn’t do it after all I’ve been through? Everyday wishing it would end. I just can’t understand how I could be scared of death.        I’m such a *****!

 

 

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A Shattered Heart

by ldbproject
written by ldbproject

If you are reading this, please listen with an open heart.

My best friend committed suicide on March 14th. She had an account on this website that i just came across and she had posted asking about ways she could do it, and my already shattered heart broke a thousand times more as i read the comments telling her how. As much as apart of me wants to respond with so much anger to anyone who encouraged her in how to end her life, a bigger part of me also breaks for all the others who were in her same numb state. She had talked with […]

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I really want to die.

by joseph1976
written by joseph1976

I’m 37. And I’m an asshole. I’ve hurt people. Because I have fears. My mother was murdered christmas of 1999. My father, who always treated me like I was nothing, died christmas 2006. I always blamed myself for my mother’s death. I should have been there. I also have a severly autistic son, which I also blame myself for. In fact, she tells me all the kids are fucked up because of me. And I lost the one person that I loved more than anything due to me. Nobody else. And I’ve had to come to terms with the fact that I’m the problem. Me. […]

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too weak to move

by killmealready97
written by killmealready97

here I am laying in bed after a night of almost no sleep like every other night since ive been on these pills…im just to weak to move anymore its only a matter of time before my “sister” comes in yelling calling me names telling me to get up but I dont have the strength anymore im looking for a way to end this life,ive tried overdosing but that didnt work so I need something worse I dont care anymore if people are upset if I die because if they cared they would try to understand my pain but they dont even talk to me […]

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I want to end it, but I always balk at the last moment…

by lazarus
written by lazarus

I’ve been suicidal since the age of 14. I’m now 36. I’ve spent 22 years fighting the pain daily, trying to tell myself to just get through the next day, looking towards the future, grasping at any tiny thread of hope. But the depression is always there. I haven’t fulfilled my potential in life – I was a straight A student, socially adept with many friends, good-looking, and liked by most people. I could have done anything I’d wanted to with my life.

I feel that what I want is always just within reach, but then the monster of depression will latch on to my mind, […]

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Interesting 4/11/14

by lofftb
written by lofftb

Tonight was interesting. I found out my mom had been married before, in college. And that my father was a complete pot head. And so was every other man my mom had dated before. And that my uncle was a very popular weed dealer in southern Arkansas. My cousin doesn’t know, but my uncle had been married before to a total ***** and he doesn’t want Natalie to know. I really don’t like secrets much less keeping them. I wish my mom hadn’t told me that because I will probably end up fucking shit up again. Sad night. Its actually pretty funny I wasn’t invited […]

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what the hell happened to reason

by addicted
written by addicted

Many human lives are clueless, at end of life “what you did with 100 years” finds no answer

Most of things on earth (god, rules, ethics, philosophy, technology) are developed by few confident, intelligent, strong humans
remaining all species really don’t have any clue on what the shit they living for

1. Not enough money for live the way we want

2. Even if keep accumulating the money with job doing, it takes a life to make reasonable amount of money.

3. Any how we die, why the shit we should undergo lots of pain to continue doing what we are.

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why am I here

by killmealready97
written by killmealready97

this is my first post here I dont even know why im trying its stupid all I want is to die ive tried overdosing and cutting but I just ended up in hospital and since ive been on these new pills all ive done is make things worse I ruined 3 friendships and my relationship I messed up
why am I here…I JUST WANT TO DIE and end this hell thay is my messed up life

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please help me…

by jaysonerickson
written by jaysonerickson

i give up i wish i could do something but i cant i try and be happy but now…i dont feel anything when i cut it doesnt hurt no matter how deep….i want to just end this i mean my life sucks right now and my dad just cant stop punishing me…so far i have gone one day without water from him and a week without food….i can feel my self being eatting inside out….i just what this to end

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I feel stuck

by deathforme
written by deathforme

I’m set on my plan to end things but one thing that i have always wondered with overdoses …. tried many times and failed but what are peoples opinions, lots in one go or drag it out so to speak so a few and often? Just wondered what people found as I always end up being sick even with anti sickness tablets :/ it’s one thing that has always puzzled me, not od’ing this time but something that has played on my mind since last attempt

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Cold Tears

by Frozen In Time
written by Frozen In Time

It’s so hard to get someone to understand you. It rips your soul apart when the look of incomprehension shows up. I have only just wanted some help and care. But I guess that’s a luxury that I won’t ever have.

I live like a zombie. My soul is dead. My emotions are dead. I have no passion. I just want to end this.

Frozen In Time.

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I Dreamed A Dream

by Frozen In Time
written by Frozen In Time

I want a peaceful passing. No drama. No pain. All my life I’ve only been pretending. People tell me to follow my desires. To do what I want. I want my sufferings to end. I just cannot cope anymore.

Personally was never a cutter. Carbon monoxide is what I’ll use.

I’m doing the world a favour by dying.

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Just another failure

by thatoneguy122
written by thatoneguy122

I was so careful with the measurements. Yet I still woke up this morning only to a hell of a stomach ache and spewing everywhere. I thought for sure I would be done peace at last, no pressures too tug at me all day long. Just bliss and as I sat there knowing full well what I had done I grew with joy. I hugged my mom and my sister hell I even talked about cars with my step dad who I loathe. In those moments I was happy only too wake up the next day knowing my curse is still not over. Like […]

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Tying it up

by Greenz
written by Greenz

Short-drop suspension is the way to go. Slip knot on the rope to tie it around my neck…That works fine.

…But I’m not sure how to tie the other end to something. What you guys think? How can you do that?

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Depression and Weight Loss/Gain

by k2fraser
written by k2fraser

Yeah, I’ve lost a lot of weight due to my depression. 40lbs in 4 months. I not really sure why I don’t eat. It’s not like I’m not hungry. I make a meal, eat half of it, put the rest in the fridge. The next day, I eat like half of the half and put it away. The next day I eat another half of a half of a half. I throw the last 1/8th of the meal out then. I try to force myself to finish, but it feels like I’m going to be sick if I take another bite.

Then I also get the […]

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At the end of my rope.

by djm113
written by djm113

I have so many issues I just can’t deal with anymore. I’m trying to get out of bed to live my life, but what’s the point? Everything seems daunting. I can’t sleep, eat, my memory is shot. I keep crying. I just need life to take it easy on me, to throw a bone for once. I feel selfish and terrible for obsessing over myself like this. I don’t know who to talk to, all my friends know I have bouts of depression but know nothing about attempts and cutting. I just want to be normal. Sorry everyone. Just needed to put that out there. […]

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