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Fed Up
The time has come for this worthless trash to go….this might be one hell of a lame post considering my skills at writting ( at everything in fact ).
Anyway, how should I even start ? By the truth maybe, I’m a 21 years old loser who disagree with the meaning of his life. I always lived a loser’s life as far as I recall, but childhood innocence (I guess ) prevented me from realizing it, ignorance is bliss after all, starting as an hyperactive, but outgoing kid able to make friends, to a slowly (but surely) shying away teenager, and adult too for that matter, […]
Every thing is getting on top of me. I have been “clinically depressed” since i was 15 but these days I wonder if i have other things going on. I just make mistake after mistake and its made my life very hard. I then feel bad for thinking my life is hard when i am no doubt luckier than billions of people and animals in the world. My life is hard in terms of feelings of worthlessness, lonliness, panic, self hatred and guilt. I loath myself and then even more for being so inward facing and seemingly selfish. I am very manipulative.
I have made so […]
I want to die, and not because I’m going through some ‘rough times’ or whatever, I’ve felt this way since I was at school.
I’m in my 20’s and I have mental health problems, manic depression, insomnia, amongst other things, I never have any energy nor feel happiness.
I feel like life isn’t for me, it’s all too hard when I think of it all, it’s so daunting and I just don’t have the energy for it. I can’t hold down a job because of my insomnia, so what’s the point of living? I’m not wired properly to ever be happy and I’ll always have problems doing normal […]
<this is a rant- you’ve been warned>
you’re such a fucking joke, you know that?
i’ve known you for over 10 years and i’m just starting to realize what a horrible person you are. you hate being judged, but you’re the first to judge someone else. you are a complete fucking hypocrite, and make my life hell. you tell me to stop bringing up the past because you’ve changed but you just keep proving my points. i know you hate him, but that gives you no right demand him to do something after ignoring his existence FOR AN ENTIRE YEAR, and then spend weeks bitching about what […]
Okay so everyone always wants to know what my problem is, why I feel this way or why I seem totally unable to make things better. But for fucks sake they don’t know me, or my history, so they’re in no position to judge! The fact is if they did, they’d probably understand why I want to die as badly as I do. And trust me it’s such a long, sordid and sad story that half the time I wouldn’t even know where to start or how to explain. Sometimes I look at the way my life has turned out and it makes me fume with […]