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Anxiety, let me feel comfortable

by operationmintyhippo 8/29/2015

written by operationmintyhippo

Call me an attention seeker. Call me what you will. But I know my intentions.

My anxiety makes me feel ugly. I can never do anything different and I want to so desperately. When I finally get the courage to do something different, my anxiety tells me I look so stupid. I see strangers look at me and I feel like they know it’s not how I usually look and they think I look stupid and shouldn’t do anything with myself.

I never wear makeup. But I look like a boy bum when I don’t and I feel so ugly. Tonight I put on makeup and did […]

8/29/2015 39 comments

If You Knew- Joel Faviere

by Delisnak 8/29/2015

written by Delisnak

They think you’re crazy,
they think you’re mad.

They call you stupid,worthless,
tell you you’re not worth it.

Now you’re walking back,
to a place you call home,
but you feel so alone.

The same hurtful hits,
it’s your darker place.
In your virgin ears,
the remarks they make.

And if they knew, if they really knew
all of those things.
That you do in your room,
to hide the pain.

I bet their minds would change.
I’ll bet their minds would change.

They’d change,if they knew the pain.

8/29/2015 1 comment

happiness is against me

by theex-hopefullpessimist 8/29/2015

written by theex-hopefullpessimist

This year has probably been the worst year of my life.
I have suffered from anxiety since i was little, and i dont remember a time without it.
however, disregarding that, i feel like no matter how much i try to be happy, happiness turns against me, or life or the universe.
the beginning of this year was great, i had great friends, a loving boy friend, a loving family.
then after coming back from a (what i though was a) perfect holiday with my then boyfriend in june everything just turnt to crap, it has been a downward spiral.
My grandad fell ill and […]

8/29/2015 1 comment

Bulimic. I really need help.

by nosound 8/28/2015

written by nosound

I have just graduated high school and in high school a few of my friends developed eating disorders and got extremely thin. I remember being worried about them and thinking what they were doing was crazy and trying to think of anything I could do to help without harming our friendship. As I got older and gained weight while some of my friends didn’t because of their disorders or over cautious dieting, I started to feel self conscious about my size and disliked my body a lot. Also with all of the media portrayal of perfectly skinny girls I felt very ashamed of my size […]

8/28/2015 2 comments

First Week On Sertraline

by Lovebug4142 8/27/2015

written by Lovebug4142

So my Nurse Practitioner prescribed me Sertraline for anxiety and depression. It has been making me feel worse! In the morning I am at school, and I am really jumpy and as one of the teachers says “wiggly” and then after lunch I’m really down, all I can think about is going home and hurting myself . Mostly I just think about getting a knife and cutting my face.

Today I feel sick, my stomach hurts and I feel like I gotta throw up. Ugh I hate these meds. First week of my Senior year of high school and my emotions are all over the place.

Has […]

8/27/2015 1 comment

Numb

by impossible_girl 8/27/2015

written by impossible_girl

I’m staring at the new cut on my upper arm, and I’m numb. I’ve just finished writing a text so someone I thought I could trust, who chose a guy over my friendship, and I’m numb. I just dropped one of my courses, because I couldn’t handle a full-time course load, and I’m numb. Maybe I’ll never feel again. Or maybe tonight will be the night, and I won’t have to worry about the fact that my SSI will be there and gone on the 1st. Well, really, either way I’d never feel again. I think I’m out of […]

8/27/2015 5 comments

Panic and Anxiety

by The Indigo Kydd 8/27/2015

written by The Indigo Kydd

I dont know what this is. My heart is beating out of my chest. I’m having a fucking PANIC attack like you wouldnt believe. Someone talk to me. I’ve not felt this since I was 15. This is scary as fuck. Like all my worst realities are going to come to pass because I’m thinking them into existence type deal. That’s not the reality but definitely how i feel.

8/27/2015 2 comments

by meg3323 8/27/2015

written by meg3323

I haven’t cut myself for like 2 months, but I really want to right now. I just need to feel the pain.

8/27/2015 2 comments

Tuesday

by Chelseamx 8/26/2015

written by Chelseamx

Why do I have to feel this way everyday. I’m so sick and tired of crying. I have no one to talk to. They’re all using me. This is my only way to let my feelings out. I don’t think I should hold them in anymore. But I don’t want to be here. I miss my grandma. I don’t want to be alone anymore.

8/26/2015 1 comment

Just…

by jmc22 8/25/2015

written by jmc22

Just wish that people would give me space

Just wish my parents would leave me alone

Just wish I could grow up and leave

Just wish that i was smarter, prettier, more athletic

Just wish that everything would end

Just wish that I wasn’t born

Just wish that I didn’t feel this way

8/25/2015 2 comments

Ever used pro-suicide media?

by katk 8/23/2015

written by katk

My name is Kat and I’m a freelance writer working on a story about pro-suicide media. I was wondering if any of you have experiences with pro-suicide chat rooms/ forums/ sites that you might be open to sharing. I know this is a very sensitive topic, so no pressure whatsoever, but if you do feel comfortable sharing a story I would really appreciate the insight. Shoot me an email at curiousgoth26@gmail.com. Thanks for your help!

8/23/2015 6 comments

everyday is a struggle.

by zach42o1 8/23/2015

written by zach42o1

My life really isn’t that bad. i wasted 8 years in the military and was suicidal almost everyday for the last year that i spent in. i was always on some kind of anti depressant or a tranquilizer. once i got out i stopped my medications and i feel better yes. but i still have the thought on a daily basis that I’m tired of my life and feeling unaccomplished with everything that i have going on. its a struggle, i have a girlfriend, i go to school, and i medicinally use cannabis. but i cannot seem to every get out of the slump, I’ve […]

8/23/2015 1 comment

Put Me Out Of My Misery

by Yours, Forever and Always 8/22/2015

written by Yours, Forever and Always

I don’t know whether to cry or laugh. I’m so god damn done. I’m done with living and feeling like absolute shit.

Yet, I can’t even kill myself. Or cut myself. That used to be my escape and now it doesn’t help at all.

Today, I kept jerking the car, knowing my step father would feel pain. And I wanted him to. I wanted him to feel a fraction of what I feel everyday.

And my half sister wouldn’t just shut up. I screamed at her. And I would’ve kept screaming at her but my step dad told me to […]

8/22/2015 2 comments

My last night

by rubdoo50 8/22/2015

written by rubdoo50

Hi guys,

so it’s decided tonight is my last night. Tomorrow evening I am staying in a motel room & am going to hang myself there (so my family don’t have to find my body). I really wanted a more painless method than hanging but after researching and researching it on CO poisoning or the helium exit bag these options are too logistically difficult for me. I feel quite happy right now knowing that it’ll soon be over, but will no doubt be extremely nervous tinorrow. I also feel extremely guilt ridden knowing this is really going to hurt the ones I love. I try to […]

8/22/2015 22 comments

I decided to back and all in.

by BrokenDreams 8/22/2015

written by BrokenDreams

Hey everyone! I’m still in a barely good shape and still crying for things that shouldn’t even make you feel sad but I decided that I’ll go back writing. Well, it will probably be a run on whether I get crushed by the felling of panic or success to finish this first though.

But I decided that since I only have this I should at last risk it. As long as I can continue I’ll go back to my old routine of being crushed and get up again and again. I might be here a little less but I’ll probably come back time to time! I’m […]

8/22/2015 1 comment

Do you?

by Chelseamx 8/21/2015

written by Chelseamx

Do you guys ever feel that cold sensation go through your entire body. It usually happens when I’m extra depressed.

8/21/2015 12 comments

why

by lxthium 8/21/2015

written by lxthium

I listened to one song. One song is all it took for me to feel triggered again. On august 6th I overdosed, got out of the hospital on the 9th. That should’ve scared me out of feeling like this, but it didn’t. I still feel like this. I just want to be happy again.

8/21/2015 1 comment

i found this site by accident

by tooyoungtoocrazy 8/20/2015

written by tooyoungtoocrazy

i found this site by searching up what would happen if i swallowed 12 nurofen. it wasn’t for me but for my friend who i love very much. I’m worried about her safety but also my own because I’m extremely unhappy.. i feel sick.. i feel like dying.. everyday this girl asks me if i will be alive tomorrow before i go offline, just so she knows i won’t kill myself. today i feel like purposefully not being online so she can’t ask me. that way no commitment. that way i can die and she won’t even know. my parents don’t know her so she […]

8/20/2015 4 comments

My story

by Dxe_56 8/19/2015

written by Dxe_56

Just spent a bunch of time writing this on mobile and forgot to save it and got an error, yay me.

Anyway, hi. I’ve been browsing this website on and off for the past year or so and decided to share my story today.

So I’m currently 18 years old, and I’ve been dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts since about 9 or 10.

I’ve never really met or talked to my real father in any way, he left when I was 3 months old, I come from a relatively poor family

and my father never paid his child support, my mom rarely had a job and would constantly get […]

8/19/2015 6 comments

Numb.

by Delisnak 8/18/2015

written by Delisnak

im so numb cant feel anything other then the warm tears i cry.

8/18/2015 0 comment

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