I used to have thoughts of hiding under a car tire, and waiting for a family member to back up. I just couldn’t go through with it. Through the past 11 years of my life I’ve been completely miserable. There has been a series of unfortunate events that lead me to where I am today: living in a shitty apartment alone, no friends, hardly talk to family, education going down the toilet, and terrible insomnia. I’ve been doing some research on suicide methods, and I want to go via ********. But, it seems like there are many failed attempts. Anyone have any advice?
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First Thoughts
It’s difficult wanting to die, but knowing you’ll never go through with it.
My first thoughts of suicide were in 7th grade. I’m not sure why. It’s been over 5 years since then and though I’ve gone through several long periods of happiness and feeling content, those thoughts still remain.
I’ve nothing left to live for, I get up out of bed in the morning because I’m awake.
Honestly, the only thing that’s prevented me from killing myself is my family. They’re good people. They don’t deserve to live the rest of their lives with that in the back of their minds.
It’s just so hard sometimes.
I mean, I […]
So i find myself in my own hole again, im 21 years old and i’ve suffered from depression all my life as well as other disorders. i first started feeling depressed when i was a young child. The first thoughts of suicide that i can remember was when i was 8 and from that point i’ve been on and off many medications. I’ve had the ups and the downs and now i feel like im stuck in the down and i can’t get out. i spent a month in a psych ward in December and was released in January. i was homeless when i was […]
Today was the first day I ever looked on his website because I used to deny I was depressed but yesterday I was upset about my mom being hard on me and this drama that happened at school and I started cutting. Yesterday it was only with a earring and I didn’t even break the skin but today I used a razer and it feels so sour. I’m always repeating in my head ‘you’re so stupid just f*** off.’ I just always have been feeling worthless ever since one of my exes who was my really good friends before we went out call me a […]