I know I’m new here. I’ve had these thoughts in my head for years, but no one understands me. My meds are off. I’m trying new ones, but they aren’t working fast enough.  Every med I’ve tried either doesn’t work or has side effects that are worse than the damn depression. Therapists have never worked. I’ve never found one that I liked or trusted. I’m afraid that the first one I talked to honestly would dump me in a looney bin or have me forcibly committed. So I can’t open up to them. Basically, everything in my relationship is my fault. Everything. When I try […]
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God In My Life
Yes life can be difficult, I won’t deny that. We do go through our good times and bad times. Ive had depression for 2 years and still trying to heal from it. I used to cut myself, which eventually made me feel worse. I never really had friends that I could talk to, so basically I thought that I was complettely alone. Then I realized that i’m not, because I have people at my church that I can talk to and God. Oh btw i’m 15 and my name is Deana. For the people suffering from depression try to look at all the positive stuff […]
these past couple nights ive had dreams of my little brothers.. dreams about me and them running away from all the bad. they’re why i live. what happens when i have nothing to live for anymore? im so scared to be hurt again, so scared that i always have a negative way of looking at things. i try and find god in my life, i try to be a good person. but a good life seems so far away. why do bad things happen to good people? why am i suicidal? why does my mind race? why am i never good enough? im trying. i wish […]