Gray Hair

I want to die a heroic death. Go down in a blaze of glory. As Neil Young put it, “Its better to burn out than to fade away”. One of my worst fears is fading away. Letting old age cause my body to decay until I’m left with nothing but health problems and gray hair. I can’t let that happen, I don’t want my life to be for nothing. I want to have suffered for a reason. Me risking/losing my life for someone else. At least then there would have been a point to it all