I thought that having a crush was normal. It is, but it’s not when that person is all that you think about. You dream about them. You daydream constantly about them saying that they like you the same way you like them. These things aren’t normal. I think I’m just fucking going insane. Trevor is honestly the only thing I can think about. He’s my safe haven, in a way. I focus on him instead of focusing on how much pain I’m in. I guess it might be normal, but it doesn’t feel that way. I don’t want to go crazy. I don’t want to […]
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Hopeless Case
If I were to destroy myself today, you wouldnt know or care. If you are going to destroy yourself do it in your honor. Not anyone elses. Maybe if I thought you cared I would be more inclined to destroy myself in your honor.
Ever despise someone so much you’re willing to commit the murder of self right in front of them… I used to say you can only hate someone you love so hate does not apply here. One may be feeling feelings undescribable, far from hate. These feelings affect self directly, that’s how soul deep the wounds are.
See the thing is one cannot lose […]