Omg, like I’m mad paranoid. I’m paranoid to even be writing this right now. I feel like everyone is against me. Like my life is the Truman Show. I struggle and misery is my best friend, it’s like after awhile you enjoy the pain. A sort of frenzy begins to happen. I’m just really in a dark place. I feel like music is talking to me and sending me subliminals from my boyfriend. This happened before with someone else I cared for. It’s like I’m getting all these subliminals and signs from everything. I’m always freaking out and no one knows. No one […]
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Horror Movie
As much as I push people away, it might not seem like it but one of the things I hate the most is being alone. I hate the constant silence and the asphyxiated feeling of being on my own with my thoughts. I have to contemplate everything all by myself.Â
There is nothing to distract me, no one to provide answers. I often lie awake at night repeating the words, “I’m scared” over and over in my head. It’s not like the fear that comes from watching a horror movie. It’s the fear of knowing that I will always be this way. I can never escape […]
When I think About You
When I think about you
I wonder if you feel whispers biting at your ear
Attempting to notify your heart
Do you hear
That you are the pinnacle of a little boy’s thoughts?
I fear
Every time my memory drops an ice cube down my back
Kissing each vertebrae cold
That you are thinking about me in a shade too close to black
Because in my thoughts exhausted by you
I only concoct colors of yellow and blue
I wonder if your mind paints pictures of me
The same ones I draw of our fingers wrapping warmly
Do you […]