Wednesday I decided to do what most of you told me to do, travel. I went out, got a boat ticket, and went to Puerto Rico. No hotels, no houses, no other people.Just me and my car. I was having the time of my life speeding in the hills and going round corners like a mad man until i heard 3 loud bangs and the engine turned off…. when i lifted my bonnet up my engine was fried, my battery was soaked in yellow liquid, and my exhaust was cracked…. The one thing i looked after in this world was dead….. I had to wait […]
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I’ve always managed my depression very well. But recently over the last 4 months I have just seemed to sink lower and lower. Now I know it probably hasn’t helped I’ve bottled up my feelings in the past.
But anyway the main problem is I’ve lost my smile, confidence and my ability to interact socially.
See about ten years ago I was a very recluse person and if I did go out I was always a loner. Then I met my best mate and he brought the best out of me.
Now ten years later he now lives in a different town and I’ve started […]
To pull a trigger. To jump off the building. To make that last cut that’s really deep enough to do the damage.
It’s that last moment that’s always so hard to get around.
There are so many opportunities to die. So many. And so easy it is! And yet there’s something that holds most of us back when we get to that edge.
I suppose that’s the reason why lots of us choose pills instead of more direct means… It’s hard to actually take action to be physically destructive to the self in a final way. But pills? They’re easy. They don’t hurt when you take them. And […]