Taken from Robert Crumb’s Plunge Into The Depths Of Despair (1983)
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1 hour and 30 minutes into new years and my mum stars just screaming at me like a fucking cow. Keep in mind that this was not the first time she shouted at me for no reason. I don’t know what i did wrong. I’m questioning myself over and over again. I’m planning either killing myself by and overdose or just fail but experience severe pain. Note that i come from a Muslim family even though in my perspective, i think that all religion are a joke. It is believed in Islam though that you will go straight to Hell if you self harm or kill yourself. But i don’t believe that? I don’t know anymore.
I’m Â from the middle east. Female, ex-muslim, the worst combination in the worst place. Anyway, I’m not doing so well socially too.
There’s a big community of atheists on Facebook which I joined, and even there I just couldn’t express myself or get involved with them.
I just don’t belong anywhere. I lived as an expat in another country here in the region, and kept moving all the time so never had the chance to make friends, or fit in a stereotype which people would accept. I’m just an awful mix of everything I’ve seen or heard.
I’ve been through alot of shit, just like everyone else, Â obviously. It all started the moment I realized god is a fairytale. It happened in just a day, and I think religion was all I trusted but never reasoned. Anyway I’m over that now.
Some horrible stuff happened when my family knew I’m an atheist. They knew by accident ofcourse. The amount of bullshit they believe and act upon is unbelievable. Now I don’t know who you are or where you’re living. But If you’re living in one of those first world countries then all I’m expecting you to think is that we’re barbarians uncivilized people, and guess what, you’re right!
But there is this tiny little fraction of us who managed to wake up in the middle of this nightmare, I’m starting to believe it’s some gene mutation I don’t know, cause no matter how much logic you put on correcting the bullshit here they just don’t get it.
I’m listening to lots of people in their 40’s talking about aging, how awful it feels, you know, dying slowly. Or being dysfunctional in some parts, that doesn’t seem good, I know I’m in my early 20’s but I keep thinking I’m already halfway there.
20+ years passed and I haven’t lived. Buried alive, like literally. This Hijab or veil bullshit, and the happiness is a taboo as long as you’re a virgin, just don’t smile and act as a f* piece of slave. I still have alot to do to get out of here, if I ever did. And even though I might succeed if I tried, but does it really worth it? I’m already 20 something, that gives me how long to enjoy before starting to break down? 10 years? Well fuck it, I may not be able to make it anyway.
I’m having bad luck with my boyfriend. I guess it’s my problem not his. I just can’t manage some personal issues I’m having, I don’t get it, but it’s painful.
I was just reading some peoples posts in here and I thought to myself, why the heck do you complain. I mean nothing is wrong with suicide, I think my life sucks, If you’re born in the middle east and you don’t have a penis just kill yourself. That’s it.
Don’t wait to listen to the hope bullshit. There is no hope. It’s just what it is. Wrong person, wrong mindset, wrong place. Easy, just kill yourself in silence.
I think I wrote here to at least have my story told. And even though I wrote that much I haven’t said a thing.
PS: I tagged the category “Stories of Hope” as I sometimes think that maybe, just maybe, if someone saw the shit I’m in s/he’ll be more tolerant with the shit they’re in.
because of RELIGION I AM FILTH.
I AM GOING TO HELL. because of RELIGION.
I AM NOT INVITED TO HEAVEN because I am a dirty Srilankan who has done bad things. I am too UGLY TO be treated kindly >I am TOO FAT AND BAD to be treated kindly. Can someone ever see themselves flying through a hose with a brown shirt on, all that’s left of them because of ISLAM?
I Saw HOW GOD SAW ME AND DEPICTED ME AND know i’m going to HELL, and know HATRED and know CRUELTY and know a CRUEL JOKE> cruel joke spelled backwards is JESUS CHRIST. MY RELIGION is for slaves. I AM GOING TO HELL> HE LAUGHS AT ME AND MOCKS ME AND MAKES FUN OF ME AND INSULTS ME. HE says i’m the ugliest woman he’s ever seen. and on his Earth.
Can anyone say those things about a MAN who CONSIDERS HIMSELF GOD and that ppl like me are going to HELL CUZ WE INSULTED HIM.
I hate them being in love everyday while i GET BEATEN ACROSS THE FACE BY THE MEN IN THE ROOM. they said i’m the only one who could see it cuz i’m a Â U.
HOW DO YOU LIVE WITHOUT wanting to DESTROY THIS CRUEL SYSTEM?