Ever since I was a little girl, living was an issue. I’ve wanted to die since I was 8 yrs old. My mother was/is evil and doesn’t have feelings like most people do. Common traits of a Sociopath; she would have a lot of sex with a lot of people just so she could feel something… Or at least I tell myself that’s the reason why. She married my dad while she was still married and had 2 sons with someone else. My dad didn’t know, but her first husband soon found out and divorced her. My dad in turn raised my two older brothers […]
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June Carter Cash and Johnny Cash sang Farside Banks of Jordan (copywright blah,blah blah) but it makes me think of you Jeff…
I believe my steps are growin’ wearier each day
Still I’ve got another journey on my mind
The lures of this old world have ceased to make me wanna stay
My one regret is leavin’ you behind
But if it proves to be His will that I am first to cross
And somehow I’ve a feelin’ it will be
When it comes your time to travel likewise, don’t feel lost
For I will be the first thing that you’ll […]
Make millions of money, own a big yacht with a copter on top of it
go to jail, write a book
let famous hero make a movie out of it and watch him take Oscar
turn out a public speaker
not
finish the graduation
get a avg paying job
ugly looking wife
mediocre kids
If someone ask, why you building yet another avg life on earth? reply him ” I like what I do and I am curious to learn, my goal in life is not to become great, my goal is just to live happy avg life”
To be frank, self convincing power saving lots of human lives on earth. Without it 90% human lives don’t have […]
I have a reason to stay alive. I know nobody cares but for so long I barely lived with any reason but now I found him. He brings me pure happiness. For the first time I have a smile that is really mine. Behind closed eyelids no longer am I haunted with nightmares and worry but peace and knowing when I wake up he will be there right beside me. When I feel his warmth the coldness in my heart melts away and I am left feeling such strong love that it keeps my thoughts so far away and I can actually live. I am […]
Drugs. That’s what caused all this. There is lump in my throat telling me i dont think anyone will truly understand the absolute s**t it does to you, but who knows. So here is my story..
*Note* I am deeply ashamed of this, and i try to forget about it as much as i can. (i have not re-read this because it was hard enough writing it, im sorry about any spelling mistakes)
Grade nine was my first year of school ever (i was home schooled) so walking in the doors of that high school healed a lot more then desks and teachers, it healed experiences. I didnt know where […]
 March 10, 2012 I could not believe what I just heard. Dakota committed suicide. I remember standing next to Jordan wondering how this could have happened. What Dakota did broke my heart into a million pieces, but it also changed my life forever. It showed me that no matter how bad things are, or how bad they get. There is always hope in the long run everything will be okay. Sometimes you have to go through the tough times to get to the good. It also showed me that there are always people who care. They might not act like it and they might not […]