I have a reason to stay alive. I know nobody cares but for so long I barely lived with any reason but now I found him. He brings me pure happiness. For the first time I have a smile that is really mine. Behind closed eyelids no longer am I haunted with nightmares and worry but peace and knowing when I wake up he will be there right beside me. When I feel his warmth the coldness in my heart melts away and I am left feeling such strong love that it keeps my thoughts so far away and I can actually live. I am so deeply in love with him that my soul is not my own anymore I have given him everything. I am no longer the same person I have changed in the best way possible and this is all thanks to him. He has touched what I believed an already dead soul and given it such life that shines brighter than any star. His love gives me hope for a future. One I never saw possible until I met this wonderful man who has captured my heart. He is my perfect half. I love him more than anything this world has to offer. I sit here crying tears of happiness because even when he is asleep I feel happiness because he has stayed by my side this is more than anyone has ever done for me. He has given me life. I love Jordan Christian with everything my soul has to offer. Thank you for showing up in my life thank you saving me but most importantly thank you for loving me the way you do. I know I have a future now because your in it.
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I’m happy for you that you’ve found a good relationship in your life.
But please, don’t throw all of your self and your happiness into this person. Believe in yourself too. Be thankful that he’s there, but be able to stand alone as well. It’s just dangerous to put that many happiness creds into someone else. I’ve seen many posts about how lost people are after the one they depended on for happiness is no longer there. By doing this, you’re setting yourself up for great pain.
Find a happy medium in this relationship and build it together and realize that you have your part to do as well. Enjoy yourself and love what you have, but be careful and don’t base all your happiness on him.
Life is hard and I have found a medium 🙂 just he has given me hope for a future I had thought I lost. No longer do I feel scared that tomorrow will be the day I give up. I don’t feel the urge to cut or do drugs. He has saved me and I know relying on a person is dangerous I have experienced it numerous times. I risk a lot in this but I am not scared because I believe he needs me as much as I need him. Thank you for caring.