I am this new to this site. I am 13 . I frequently cut my wrists and it had gotten to the point where I feel like it isn’t enough. My friends lids me off because a few of them happened to notice and they think its funny. They don’t take me  seriously. I feel that after I’m finally dead they’ll realize how serious it actually was/is . I just wanted to know if it hurt to over dose. how many pills it takes to kill yourself and if it was the less painful way to take my own life.
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Lately I’ve been pulled in by this weird trance like gaze. Anything I look at I start to key in and never blink. Behind the stare in the eyes is sadness, bitterness and impatience. My lids seem frozen in time, my teeth lock, and my heart slows to a crawl (not sure if literally). I then shakes my head and keep doing things at lightning speed. Rush rush rush. If I can’t die then I have to force myself to be blindly fast. Unfortunately my blinding fast is going from a snail to a tortoise. It’s faster for me but not really fast to everyone […]
My hands ache and my lids feel heavy
My face feels tired
And I haven’t even started my day
I’m not ready
Lately I’ve felt like crying
Now tears do not flow
It must be this heat
Beaming in from my window
A high velocity fan blows the hot air into the hall
The air conditioner needs maintenance
And I’m waiting for the temperature to fall
I don’t mind the spring and her allergies
The summer and her scraped knees
The Fall and a beckoning bite
And the winter the freezes hard during the night
But I’m a wolf who doesn’t mind an icy muzzle
To run free and […]