Im not scared of death. I welcome it with arms wide open. Some days I just sit and imagine it. Me. Dead. I only want one thing but, these games are too much to play. The game of life and death always end. If I had a choice I’d be gone. I do have people that care. My one friend knows I’m like this. Some friends do. No family. To most people I seem happy a lot of friends athletic. Im not happy. I hate this skin I’m living in. I try and keep my head up high. It’s really hard cause I wanna die. […]
There are only two things in life. Success and failure. Call them as you will, happiness and discontentment, power and disinfluence, or fame or obscurity. There is only one thing after life. Death. To those who want it, it comes too late. To those who don’t, it comes too soon. Life is the long winding road to death. After our deaths comes the death of all who we know, and then the death of all who they have ever met and so on. The chance that everyone you have ever influenced will be dead increases over time. But you already know that. We delude ourselves […]
Who is this quiet girl?
The one with the scars
What makes her so deplorable?
Why is she so marred?
Why don’t you ask her?
“What is your life story?â€
Are you afraid to stir
A pot already overflowing?
Do you know sometimes
That’s all she needs?
A kind caring stranger
To let her feel seen
But you stay away
You never seem to think
About her or the fray
She keeps underneath
Why do you ignore
Her transparent mask?
Can you not see
She wants you to ask?
But you are repulsed
With no obvious cause
Why are you appalled
By someone so small?
Is it this aura of death […]
“I’ve always wanted to know what I’d see in the last moment of my life. So I mustn’t close my eyes when I die.”
“I used to think there was some kind of bird that flew and flew, never touching down until it died. But that bird never actually flew anywhere, because it was dead from the very beginning.”
So just an update. I have no internet at home for a while so.. Yeah.
Basically life is hell. I always find reasons why I should off myself.. Then I find reasons to luve, but the easiest thing right now would be death.. Iv’e been thinking its ok for me to die because i have nothing to live for. Ive been struggling for too long. I just want to be happy.. Or give up. I dont know what to do..
-Zoe.
Everyone dies.. but not everyone truly lives.
“If a person were to awake from a dream in which he experienced a hundred years of happiness, and another were to awake from a dream in which he had experienced but a brief moment of happiness,
Once awake, the situation would be the same for both because neither could ever return to that happiness.
In the same way, whether our life is long or short, at the time of death everything ends […]
I had my first suicidal thoughts last December… Triggering factor? Have no idea. At first it was just ideas like «i think it would be much better if i was going far far away». After, reflections on life, death, suffering… images of death… images of my death in dreams… and… after… images of my death when im awake, when i watch a movie, when i laugh to a good joke with friends… i see myself everywhere dying… for over a month now…. I see myself hanging by a rope in the corner of my office… or injecting myself a high dose of morphin, which i […]
ok so my problem is …. me and im ready to admit alot of mistakes iv made …. but im also ready for another life … death to me is freedom from my problems and i dont exspect alot of people to try and understand it …. i feal blocked out from this world and iv always felt iv never quite fited in .. yes i have met alot of people in my life and im happy i met them and wish them no harm but i want them to understand why im ready to die as why im rightin this .. not because i […]
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